So today is the last day of February.
And Monster was asking me last night if I am "sure" to write like every day or not.

I don't remember what exactly I answered him. But I'll try to write like everyday because now I have a regular subscriber wink~ wink~

So I am addicted to this Little Flower. It said that this is a perfect gift for Modern People.
And it's definitely true. I spent like an hour just to choose the best Little Flower for me and Monster.

They have like 9-colors which represent  different meaning. Mine is Dark Blue which represents Career Advancement, Anti-Villain and Honesty. And my Monster is Orange which brings the meaning of Adventurous, Happiness and Good Luck.

I told him and the very next day he was asking me if it is genetic flower or what. I asked him - don't you like it? He said YES. Okay that's quite alright.

Anyway,I can't get enough with this Little Flower. I love them.

And I feel like buying them all. Laugh Out Loud.

Sometime I do stupid things. But don't worry I am not going to buy all that Little Flowers unless if it's my wedding day. Haaa~~~~

So, do you addicted to anybody recently?

P/S How about you Monster? I thought you were telling me we are going to celebrate the Valentine together soon?

I finally decided to move my career to the next level.
I've gone for two interviews already.

The thing with me is I get bored easily with the same old routine. I like something which is new and challenging. I have to admit that I am quite a fast learner so learning a new thing for me is not a hard thing beside I am set for adaptation very well.

So my close friend at working place was telling me not to go. Reason is, they won't have a buddy anymore.
Somehow, living in this cruel world - we just need to be selfish at some certain of level. I don't know, perhaps I've learned that I've got to be mean and forget about the fact of hurting other people feeling. As I've been so careful with everyone's feeling all the times ( I think ).

So I believe what I wanted to believe and no other people can force me. If I have to believe in something nonsense then it is up to me because that doesn't mean that I am a bad person, am I?

Coming back, the job which I am applying is good.I've stated my expectation and for the first time I am being firm to what I want without have to worry about them getting offended.

I shouldn't really care what other people think about myself. Because if I do, I won't go anywhere.



So, Project 365: Day 5 on New Thing is done!

I don't know if you are reading this but you've been hacking my Facebook ever since.
You've been hacking my email quite sometimes too.

I've been changing my password ever since and you've just hacked my email last weekend.
But there was nothing there to read. Because I am smart enough.

Maybe you've forgotten I am very good in IT. And you were stunned when I showed you how I fixed my old computer.

You know that I am not stupid.

Anyway, I am just wondering - why so sudden leh? Laugh out loud....

So I was upset with my boyfriend the other day.
And he was pissed off with me too.

So we have not been talking like 2-days.

So that was our first fight?. Maybe.
So I have to agree fighting sometime good because it helps both to understand each other especially me.

And seriously, silent treatment doesn't really works.
And sometimes I think I don't  want to give in.
But then I miss him. And he meant a lot.

So I said, it's time to grow up. This is not a teenagers love relationship. This is real life.
And am like, "Yeah baby, I like you...!!"

Yes, Long Distance Relationship is so tough. But I know we can do it. A positive vibe will lead the way.

Lots of love..Lots of love...lots of love.

Thank you baby for still sticking up with me even though I came to be the person with no "mind" - ( sound familiar eh?)

Don't give up just yet as the new beginning just about to start.

I was reading to Jo's blog this morning. Actually this gonna be the fifth times of me reading the same post. I like it when she writes about Alex. And how she told Alex for the first time,"I Love You". Although it was not exactly "I Love You" but that sound the same.

Have you ever told anyone, " I Love You" first?

It will be pretty awesome right to hear this from someone dear to you. At least you know they appreciate you.
Laugh out loud.

I'd say I Love You to my parents.

Now what I am going to do today? A big mistake for taking a day off on Monday.

Maybe I sleep.

Good night lah.

The best way to appreciate someone is to imagine your life without them - Joseph Germani

So she got Reuben Kang. Laugh out Loud. But he is cute though.

Did you throw your oranges too? I told the boys and they were laughing at me. What the heck!

Jay once said I should learn Korean so that I can do the rapping in Korean. I laughed out loud today. It was raining and I didn't take out my umbrella, instead I ran off with my jacket and hood on. He told me I look like a school girl running like that.

He asked, why wouldn't I have my umbrella on. I told him, leceh bah! Laugh out loud.
It was really raining like seriously and I told him lucky tomorrow I am not working now the rain makes me sick ha-ha.

So we went to this restaurant and ordered some food. I told him, wait wait wait take picture first. This is going to be my Project 365.

I don't know how will people describe me. But at least I know those people who are comfortable with me think I am special. Javier sent me email yesterday and he thought that my writing is getting better. He told me that he stopped writing for like an ages now and the inspiration is like dead. So what happen to the Pizza Boy story? Because he thought he write better than Irvine Walsh. Well I think I write better than him. Laugh out loud.

So today I went to Jay's studio. There were five of us. I was jokingly telling them that we should make a team and sing like Paperplane or we can ask Joseph for a short movie break. Laugh out loud, did you watch My Valentine story by Joseph?

Pretty awesome right?

I think we should include one of the Kitingan's brother to sing. Laugh out loud.

So we lepak at the Starbuck today and here I am camwhoring with my messy hair.
And Steven said Muah! for the photogenic pictures. Laugh Out Loud. He said I can make a lot of money with my photos already. Today my friends really entertain me.

So they challenge me to do a Vlog. Can. I am searching for a song now.

Alrite, so Sunday was fine. I was out with my college friends. The boys are fine. They still crack a stupid jokes like the old days.

And Wanie, is good. I helped her to get the Barista's number and instead he asked for my number. Laugh out loud.

Ok good nite...

By the way, I got  interview on Tuesday. Wish me luck.
And I am glad I am finally leaving. Wish me luck lah you all. Ha-Ha.
Rmb, you always got choices in life!

Project 365 : Sunday - Done !

Because I have a story to tell. This is me when I was a little. See I told you, I laughed a lot.

This is me when I was a kid. When time much simpler than now. I grew up in a very happy life and things go according to my way because I don't have people to beat with. Sometime I'do feel lonely but I am happy most of the time especially when it comes family day. I fall in love to dad like a million time as he good in telling stories and I have to admit mom is the best woman in the world. I like it when she cooks and start to talk about how she met dad.


When I was a kid, I  looked at the skies a lot. Since we lived in a private land, I've got the chance to look at the skies every day. Unlikely now, the job requirement makes us forget who we really are back then. I remembered back then, I used to sleep next to the window so that I can see the sky ( even if it darks ) and the shining stars every night. I guess I've seen a shooting star once and I prayed.

My parents are not like the normal parents. I have to admit that I don't get the chance to see them like everyday. Because their job requirement requires them to travel a lot. And mom was a school teacher back then. It is normal to get posted in rural area. So I lived with my grandfather and grandmother but that makes me a strong independent lady like now. I don't really talk about this. But this will help to explain why I really value a relationship may it friendship or love relationship. And that most probably explain why I am so attached or clingy. But that doesn't make me a bad person, am I? Beside, I like it when my parents are away because I can sleep late and I don't have to study ( or pretend to study ).

This is me now. I am such a talkative person. I laughed a lot and I love to hang out. When I am with someone dear, I will ask a lot of nonsense questions. Sometime I asked a question which I already know the answer. And there are times, I just shoot a question because I love to hear their thought and opinion but maybe sometime, I asked at the wrong time but it has never come to my intention to point a statement.

I am quite a sentimental person. I am not sure how to let this go but I knew that this feeling leads to a very deep feeling either to my own parents, loved ones or friends.

I do sing and I do dance. When I was a kid, I sing and dance a lot. My dad said, singing is one of the way for us to express our feeling to a person or things surround us. And I have to agree on that point. I play guitar, just so you know.

I love writing. I think I am much better at expressing myself through writing. Writing makes me think.
I can even write the whole day like all the draft which I've been keeping so long here.

And I think I am a loving person. A loving person who is crazy with Morizakka Tree, currently.


Project 365 : Day 2 - Done.

This is the project which I am currently doing with my other blogger friend. And I just got the time to start this yesterday.

This is far different from the 30-days blog challenge. But I was asked to record my daily life either by snapping a photo or doing some recording. Awesome?

I am not really sure if I can manage this. But, I'll try.

I've started the first one yesterday. As some of you know, I am quite particular about letting people know about my personal life.  I am trying as much as I can to keep myself private but my passion on writing doesn't allow me to. So here I am writing about everything wonderful and the things in between.

I am not sure if people do read this but I am hoping that one day I'll read all this back again and laughed about my ups and downs. And that most probably another 20 years to come.

This is called The Project 365.

Enjoy and feel free to leave some comment or you can email me.
Or you can even like my Facebook at Alexa's Journey.

Cheers :)

Lei fei jor ah..... lol...
Ok, no gym? play in ur room then... let see this....

I went for running yesterday. Believe me. I stopped running for almost 4-months now. Sucks!!!
I need to get back to my life back. And I've been putting a lot weight now which I have to SAY - I HATE THAT!.

So, I was big previously. Big as in chubby bunny. Laugh out loud.
But I managed to lose down within 2-months and people notice that. I am glad. Laugh out loud.

Camwhore sekejap...Tadaaaaaa!!!!

I am struggling to run everyday and I fainted like twice and I fall sick like a week after that.
But people noticed my achievement and that is wonderful.

My life previously was like working-running-Zumba-dance class-running

My whole life is all about losing down. And I am glad people notice that.
And just 4-months ago, I stopped doing the whole routine.

So, I went for 2Km running yesterday for 30 minutes. Now I am going to upgrade for 3KM running for 35 minutes.

You, who challenge me for 5KM running for 35 minutes - You'll see, who beat who. Laugh out loud.

So are you ready for me?

Majoring the art of letting go.

Time flies. What do you think? I am much better with short hair?

Day 27- Dream destination

Venice.

Day 28- What is my typical day like?

My alarm clock set at 7am Monday - Friday.
While getting ready, I'll check for my blog, Facebook, personal email and the company's email. Just to make sure I won't get a heart-attack when I reach office.
Since I work in PJ area, the traffic is not as bad as any other place - but still sometimes I late for work.
First thing first after reach office, check on my email again. Logged in to the system. Check on letters or documents. Then go to the logistic department then lab then back to my place again. Then ding dong ding dong here and there. If no meeting or discussion or new project I'll leave office sharp sharp. Usually I don't go to the gym during weekdays but once in a blue moon yes. And usually, I don't take dinner on weekdays but once in a blue moon yes so I'll go out with friends. ( Ha- Ha diet ). Then at night, I usually watch movies or some funny stuffs on YouTube. If not I'll go out for coffee with friends and usually that will be at 3 2 Square. Lepak till midnight, go home and sleep. So that's it.

Day 29- If I were to fall to my neighbor, I would..

I would not. Lol.

Day 30- A photograph of town/city you lived in.

Like the world we know. We can't tell much what the future hold because this is the beauty of the world we know.

So I must say what happened yesterday when a guy trying to ask me out for a date.

I was just being honest. But being too much honest sometime is killing. What happen to my principle back then?

And he said, it's Friday night. What are you doing?

And she said, oh at home. Sleep. Because I am so sleepy.

Gimme your address and let's hang out. 

I said, I don't want.

I have this principle that, I won't date my colleagues or anyone from work. Call me weird thing then.

There was once when I chatted with Kenny. He is not my boyfriend. It's just that he used to have a crushed on me and that was many many years ago when I was 24 and he is 36. So he told me that, if he got his girlfriend working in the same company with him. He said, he will resign or he will make his GF to resign. Because working under one roof sounds crazy. And that's so true.

Coming back to my issue. First, none of the people from my working place caught my attention. Secondly, they are all busy body. Thirdly, I won't date people from my working place. All this sound the same right?. So easy, I won't date anyone from my working place.

So what happened when I rejected them for the zillion time?.

Come Lexa, let's have dinner together.
Don't want-lah.

Why? You don't have bf what.
Hey, I do have a boyfriend.

Wah, since when? Never tell me.

I smiled.

The last time bf issit?
Nolah. Ish.

Orang ape?
Oh, he is *****


I was standing there for like 5-minutes and he bombard me with this,"Ic, Ic...must be very careful with them. ***** are not good at keeping promises."

I answered him. Don't worry. I think you should try to get a *****  girlfriend then - so that you no need ask me out anymore. Have a nice day.

Being the real me, I am so used to ask loads of questions to a person I am close with.
But this time, I didn't ask Max, Kelly,Kenneth or Mom or Dad.

and..

I hate it when I have so much to say but I can't put it in words.
Now- I can't just write my thought like the old days. As now people are reading my blog.
But somehow, I am not really sure how to express my frustration.

There are things which I easily can just shoot away but sometime there are few things which I just don't know how to say. Even with words I felt like a lump in my throat. It just maybe I am too careful with a person's heart. I noticed that. Sometime I'd say I don't even care what other people may think or feel but deep inside my heart I don't feel like hurting people's mind. Because I know I am not a bad person or inconsiderate people. I know how it feels like to be a human.

I wish I can be wicked. And I wish I can be


....................

It that the beauty of the world we know?

Obviously.

Come on. Why do people have to lie? Are they having this low self-esteem that they need to lie and giving fake hope for people to breathe in. Come on, give me some CPR now - but NO, I don't need one.

As I am driving today, we stopped by at the Hilly. I know it's getting late and who cares. I am still on my own. The cloud so clear and it's a bit colder today even it is not as cold as the winter back in Cork.

Hey, I just don't know why do people lie. I just don't get the clue. Dad said, when people telling us inconsistent fact that's mean something not right. 

Call me secretive - that's what mom describes me. I have the feeling like I don't have to open up to people who doesn't deserve it. But that doesn't make me a bad person.

I have many friends but I have limited friends who I chose to open up with. Because, I don't need someone who is fake. To live with Alexa, the main key is to be as real as you are. Even if it's hurt, I prefer everything to be transparent. No lie, no fake.

But not everyone lives according to my way. 

And I have to admit that people lie. And the reason could be because it is fun to fool a person.

Tell me how to trust a person?

Six months ago. I was out for a mountain biking ride with my good friend Kenneth.

He is not my boyfriend. He is my good friend. I like him for always treating me as his own little sister even if sometimes he gets angry for no good reason. I appreciate him as my family and good friend of course.

I remembered when we went for rides that day.

Life is not a fairy tales, get to the ground and wake up. Kenneth is bombing me.

Even life is not fairy tales but there is one person for everyone, you know like the lovey dovey and all that?. I heard myself telling Kenneth. 

You know Kenneth like the movie, a man fall in love with a girl at first sight. Then both fall in love to each other soon after that...man proposed and that's it happy ending,live happily ever after.

You stupid girl. No such thing lah. Kenneth was telling me.

I laughed. I cycled further and further. Looking up at the skies. I said, if only I can write someone's name on the skies - I'll write.....  But I realized that I can't seem to find the name because I don't have any name to write yet.

Kenneth, how do you feel like having a boyfriend? I remembered asking him and I smiled because I know I asked him the wrong question.

How would I know. I never had a boyfriend before. You siao ah?

Bodoh la u, what I am saying is - how would I be if I had a boyfriend now?

Don't know you. He answered.

You know how much I value true people. And you know that I value true friendship,kan?

And he said, people change lah.

I know people change. But it is not wrong if you change for the better mah.

But I don't want people lie to me. You know mah it is really hard to trust people. To know which and which is true also hard. Like this I am devastated loh.

Ah Lyn life is no fairy tales lah. If you want find perfect boyfriend till 100 years also you won't find wan...you have to grab every opportunity coming.

Kenneth seem to get bored with my statement.

 I don't want a perfect boyfriend. I just want someone who I can trust. Who I can stick with. I just want to have someone who I can hold hands with even when I am in my 60s. Someone who still says I am pretty even if I am already 40s. Someone who still can kiss me like the first time he kissed me when he first met me after 10 years or 20 years of marriage. It is not hard to live with me. Because I don't fall in love with anybody that easy and when I did - that's mean I am truly in love with that person. Me and my future bf would not be perfect but it is enough to know that we complete each other.

I gave him my tight face.

Then good luck lah finding a bf then. He said and leave me.

I was stunned.

"Ken I don't want a perfect boyfriend! I just want someone who truly loves me. Knows how to appreciate me. Never lie to me. One more thing, I want to spend my life with someone I love with all my heart. Not half heart or unsure about her/his feeling!".... 

But he was too far and I bet he doesn't get what I just said.

I looked up and I say a little prayer .....

"Whoever you are....It's not hard to live with me - You just have to be true to me.You just have to be true because I am unpredictable".

I don't easily get influenced by people.
I don't give my trust to people that easily too.

As the time passed by, I think I've met with loads kind of people which I myself hard to trust.
Maybe you heard me talking so much about trust here and of course about lies - but I just can't help myself.

I have to admit that it is quite hard to gain my trust and knowing that - it won't be easy for me to open up to people. And I think I've not opened up that  much yet but that doesn't make me as a bitter person or negative person. I take things positively in life.

It just that sometime when I felt something not right, I felt unsure.
Dad was telling me once, he said we can tell the person if he/she is lying when he/she tells inconsistent fact.

I have to say, it is hard to tell fake people.
I feel so unsure to trust what and which now.

I wish people are born as a nice person. No lie no fake.

Tell me why do people lie?

We don't lie to good people.

Hey my name is Mocha and this is my sister Precious.
Basically, mommy said we look the same and she was laughing all the way out when she first saw me and my sister's photo.

Well, we are not sure if mommy will love us because we are not as cute as Charliepoo ( Spaniel Poodle ).
But we got to know that mommy was doing research about Mini Bull Terrier ever since she heard about us. She even gave my sister name which daddy said he did. Dad, forget things easily. That's what we heard from mommy.

And Mommy was very happy to see our pictures today. She said she can't wait to see us. She said she can't wait to play with us soon. We can't wait to see mommy too!

One thing for sure, we can't wait to snap a photo with mommy and daddy. That will be fun isn't it?

Now I know, mommy loves us even if we don't have fluffy hair. Mommy said, we don't judge people by their look - it's heart the matter.

With lots of love,

Mocha

So I am thinking to write about my first time visit to the SPA with the monster last weekend.
The place looks like a haunted house from the outside but when you go in it looks like heaven although I am not really sure how heaven looks like but that was what my imagination says like.

I told Monster, hey they got a little pond inside. Can I take picture?
That's my famous tagline by the way.

I don't really scan the brochure. I let the Monster do that. My eyes were everywhere. Scanning here and there. Registering this and that. Snapping here and there and that's it.


We got our room and the next thing I know, I was laying naked.

We chose to have the Balinese Sensual Body Massage. The massage was just nice. I love it. It was something different which the one I used to have in my regular Spa at Cheras.

After we done with the massage, we had this lulur applied on our body. And soon after that the body mask.

And of course a quick shower and lotion.

And taaa-daaa!!! We are good.

Anyway, this monster is SPA-junkies. sabar jer ler...

A comic and chic-lit book - because I am always out for meeting and sometime I am stuck in a clinic for long hours. Or sometime when I skipped lunch, I'll need this to soothe me.

A gastric tablet - I am a gastric patient.
A milk - Sometime I need this for breakfast.
A body perfume,lipstick and bb cream and lotion - Just in case I have a last minute meeting.
Rings - I love rings.
My glass - I need them because sometime I am lazy to put my lens on.
Notebook - Just to scratch something.

And yes there are still a few . But feel free to drop me a question then.

Kinda sleepy now. Good night.

January give away to February and it is almost to the end now.
How time really flies. It feels like yesterday. Now I am getting too emotional.
Sitting in front of my PC wearing his T-Shirt with my messy hair and I am thinking what to write now.

Oh yeah, lemme tell you about my friends and what I think about them.
So here we go :

I have Erina who works as a Nurse in Penang. We were Highschool friend and she used to sit behind me. I was the new girl who came to study at this school for a year and little did we know that we become such a very close friend soon after that. I remember when there was this one Friday we sent her sister for ballet class and I escaped from my tuition and mom found out and I was dead. And we always get scolded by our Phsyic and Add Math teacher for the worst marks in the class. ( I hate Phsycis and Add Math ) . I think I hate almost the science subjects. The only subject which interest me is Chemistry. What I like about Erina is she love music and so do I.

Max is my good friend now. I met him when we were working for offshore. I was the new girl back than and I am slightly fat. We never talk that much although he just sat behind me. He resigned few months after that and I never meet him anymore. Two years after that, I bumped with him somewhere around my new office and he happened to be my cousin's boyfriend. So we hang out and little did I know we become a very good friend till now. What I think about him, he is stingy and he like to force me to learn things which most of the time I ignore. Once, I told him that I wanna go for movie but need him to pick me up because I am scared to drive. You know what he did?. He said wait till you no scared to drive. Laugh out loud.But he is a positive person.

He told me, he don't like attention so no clear photo,LOL

Cindy and Thomas, I know them from blogging. I find that me and Cindy have a lot of things in common. We both love to shop and love blogging. She's a fun friend and always trying to make me happy. She's aggressive and firm which makes me love her so much. Oh, she is also my clubbing partner. While Thomas is a very positive person. I have to say he is a gentleman, matured and his advice always the best thing in the world. Cindy is lucky to have him.

Kelly is an emotional girl. Although sometime,she is complaining too much about her boyfriend. But still I love her as one of my very good friend. She is very good in fashion sense and quite an independent lady.

Aemy is my blogger friend. We chat so much on Whatsapp. I like being with her as she is a very smart person. I like her blog and how she describe her world. And I like her positiveness.

Fadzmie is my blogger friend too and I can say he is quite a motivator person. Once he said, don't worry so much - things will be fine. Trust me. Oh, I must say his positiveness makes me feel comfortable being a friend with him.

Kenneth is my neighbor. But we have become very good friends since last year. He taught me how to go for mountain biking. He taught me how to enjoy life without being dependent to people that much. So here I am, I go for movie alone,shopping,gym and even for dinner all by myself. But that doesn't make me pathetic. Because I have my own friends and I do hang out but sometime I need some private time alone.

I just come to know that Wanie lives somewhere nearby in my neibhbourhood. She is my coffee buddy. Since she is working at the offshore I only got to see her like once in a while. And whenever we got the time, we will go out for makan,movie and coffee together. I love being with her because she is so positive with life and she teach me a lot how to grow up,have faith and patience.

And last but not least, I have my Monster. He is not only my friend but he is more than that. He is ambitious, full of energy, strong and firm and he makes me learn things which I usually ignore. Although there is time he quite annoyed me but his positive vibe makes me hold on strong to him. He is my fairy- tales.

So yea - I still have the rest but I think I'll keep that for next time post. For the time being, I hang out with all these awesome positive people. Smile.

What do you think about your friends?

Somehow I miss this man.
When I first met this monster, I felt like he is kinda weird.

I never meet such a talkative monster in my whole life - I mean not like him. From the very moment I met his eyes and sat next to him his saliva was everywhere - like a machine-gun none stop shooting. There was once, I prayed if he can stop talking and drink his coke ( oh yes, because he was so weird sitting at the wrong place drinking coke ).

Monster talked a lot that he made me blur because I am too busy scanning him from top to bottom. Trying to figure out if he is fake. I don't really get everything he said at first - because I was busy playing with my own thought about him.

Being with him is like solving a puzzle. And I am like a walking dictionary with him like a walking radio.
He described everything with full expression and he seems so excited over the top. And, he will get tripple excited when he talks about his idea. He even gets excited when it comes to Arsenal. Let see if he really gets me an Arsenal's tee. Else I am going to stick with Man-U. Laugh Out Loud. I told him, I am going to sit next to him with me wearing Man-U tee. How is that sound?. Oh, I like this Monster!

For the first month of being with this weird Monster, I have to admit that the adaption are one real fucking hard. It was really hard to fit in with his schedule. I mean you know zero about what he really is. Who is his friends. His best friends. His hang out place. His routines. Or he himself. All I know about Monster is the sisters, the brother and the mom and the kids. And yes, Peter John and another Peter, Jonathan and Nana. And Lai. And another one Amreet which was busy calling him in the middle of the night when we were watching soccer. Plus my mobile line is suck. Whenever we try to have a conversation the line will go dead or I may sound like under-water. Duh~~~~

I felt like sometime he don't think about my feeling.
I felt like sometime I meant nothing to him.

So one day, I decided to write to Monster and recorded myself on video just to let Monster know that I am truly thinking about him.
And I never expect his response.
He responded me very well with this beautiful text, right in the middle of the night.

~~ Dear Monster, do you remember your famous tagline? It is not the Monster.Inc We Scare Because We care, but it was Baby I'll call you very fast within 10-minutes and it turned out to be 5-hours after that. Dear Monster, You're different because you didn't say goodnight before we sleep. You even go missing in the middle of us still texting. I got bengang. But like I said, even if you are in your 50s I will be - still writing to you like now. I will be - still snapping our pictures like how I did lately. Even if it means I need to listen to your talking like forever, I will try my very utmost to respond you as soon as possible but please not about the Pilot or even the Manatee beacuse Manatee also known as Sea-Cow. And I hope you won't crashed yourself to your car door anymore as I am expecting you to crash on me. Happy Valentine again my Monster~~

Weekend! Let's GYM people. Off now. Bye.

I've been sleeping the whole day yesterday. Trying to finish up my book but my brain can't suck anymore of it. So I was playing with a few games on the computer, followed by Instagram, Facebook and of course sleeping - that I decided to sign up an account for my blog.

I know this can't be serious. But I'd really done that. So here it is, please like my page xxxxxxooooxxoxxo like loads of it.

‎"When I first met you, I'm so pissed off with you.."
"When I met you at the second time, I'm so blur with you..."

But when you left, I'm missing your jokes.

So,

"When I met you at the third time, I'm so tired driving you around.."
"When I met you at the fourth time, I'm so speechless with you.."

But I knew,even how many times I meet you it will never enough - because it doesn't count like that.

It's not about how cool is the ride at Singapore or how colorful is the Jellyfish in Manila or how fun is Hong Kong or how fantastic is the shooting class.

It is only about being with the person itself. Being with the person is far more than enough. Because Heart is the matter. Hugs.

So how did I celebrate my Valentine?
I did it with Wanie. Although she is not really into it but we decide to hang out go out for late lunch,dinner and coffee. And as usual, we went to the Starbuck nearby. And we took photos like loads of photos.

The people there quite know us already and they don't mind when we did the video talking nonsense and they don't mind with us ( me especially ) laughing so loud.

It was a great Valentine. Even if there is no flowers or chocolate, I felt spending the whole time with someone who really appreciate you is much better than nothing at all.

And, Valentine doesn't mean it have to be with your honey bunny - Valentine can be with good friends, siblings, parents and those lonely people.

So yes, Happy Valentine once again.

"as the time goes by I got to learn that loving a person is not about the SMSing,TEXTing and CALLing every minutes every hours. it is HEART the matter. it is about how far the person willing to go and walk with you during good and bad times. it is about compromising. true to yourself and believing each other - i am adapting and I'm glad am learning".- alexa


Don't give up just yet as the new beginning just about to start.

The notes to my Monster

Valentine doesn't have to be with honey bunny, it can be with good friend too. So this year my V- Day I do it with Wani

Something I crave a lot?

I have nothing. All I need now is just a hug.

Gimme some hug now.

My Kitty said, "I dun giv a damn!"

Hi ex,

I've scratched your car once because I was so lost in the parking place.
I even throw your phone away. And I pretend that I have no clue about it.

I even deleted all your documents on your lappy while you are sleeping.
I even throw away your favorite jeans away.

But most of all, I steal your ID and get them to burn.

:)

Dear Monster,

Good morning.
I know you gonna be busy with the shooting,meeting..blah blah blah and all that but I am writing this to tell you that I need to see you.
Don't worry, aunty had cooked really well this week. She even gave me angpow.
I never tell you this, but she's really stingy but I've told her when it comes to food, one must not apply the stingy principle. So obviously she listens.

Dear Monster, it's Valentine today. Damn, I know you've wished me a Valentine wish in advance. But I thought you are going to dance and sing for me. Did you not promise me last month??. Anyway I would like to inform you that I am very flexible, I'll let you do something different for me this year. Don't laugh. And don't even think to give me that sarcastic answer.

Dear Monster, I have to put this in writing since you are very forgetful and stop I know you are going to tell me that Macro and Micro stuffs but still I need to put all this in writing just in case I wake up quite late today and you can read this at your 10am morning breakfast. So here I wanted to tell you that I need your hug like 100x to make up for the Manila trip.

Dear Monster, I just found out that you are right about the Dugong. It's Sea-Cow but please they don't live in the river. So I was right enough about the mammal. I even asked this to Wanie just to make sure I have the fact right.

Dear Monster, I hate it when you are busy but I am impressed when you nominated me at the second place before your business thing. So one point for you for that.

Dear Monster, I hate to say this but please don't cancel any of my trip anymore because that makes you look 10 times ugly than the lion king you see. And I swear, if you ever cancel my trip again the next time I come to pick you up I'll leave you in Puchong.

After- all, I love the person you are. Even if you talk so much and your saliva is everywhere when you get excited you still that beautiful monster you see. And even after  I got to know that you need to buy the Chili Sauce and the Nescafe which I think kinda funny I still love you as a person. Just don't say a word about how bad my parking is.

Oh before I go, please let me come to Singapore this week . I promise I'll be a good girl. I can be a good chef you know. You know I can cook white rice, like seriously.

Happy Valentine.

Yours Sincerely,
Baby

"Love doesn't mean anything if you're not willing to make a commitment and you have to think not only about what you want but about what he wants". - Nicholas Sparks


Happy Valentine everyone!!

I came home today feeling so damned full.
And doing blog-hop is my part time job nowadays since Monster on over the sea mode.

So as I was out with Wanie today - We talked about  friendship and relationship and how these two things made our world upside down. We have become so close recently after knowing that we live in the same neighborhood. As you know I am quite a pampered spoiled child. ( In a good way lar..)

I feel like I easily get connected to people who treat me well. Who knows how to appreciate me. Who knows how to value relationship. I feel good when people treat me as how it suppose to be. I feel good when people show some respect to each other. To me, a friend don't lie to each other. A friend doesn't take things for granted. A friend love each other. Care for each other. It applies the same to the relationship as well.

When you are upset it doesn't mean that you need to hit people. Everything can be solved with slow talk. Discussion and all. And if you can't express it by talking, write a letter then. Or email. Or blog. Ha - Ha. Please no blog.

Like me, my mother taught me by writing a letter. So I used to write her a letter and leave it on her dressing table like, Mom I am angry because you don't let me buy that Barbie last night. Now I am not going to talk to you. Please don't talk to me either. Because I am really upset but I still hope you will get me that Barbie. Else I am going to run away, like seriously. ( But you know mom, I am always your good girl. I promise I'll study very hard...pleaseeee.. :) :) ) - Something like this will be good enough.

Or like this, dear monster I was upset with you because you didn't even say a word before you leave for Manila the other day. You don't even send me text although I know it will cost you 60 cents of Singapore money or whatever. Now I am really angry but not at the stage of Lion King yet. When I saw your text today, I was wishing you get kidnap there and they make you a statue but then again that's mean I won't be seeing Mocha so I pulled back my thought. Next time don't make me worry else I am going to get myself kidnapped. ( But you know I am always being your good girl :) :) ) As in return, please let me come to Singapore this weekend, yours sincerely, Baby.

Ha ha.

Good night everyone.

P/S I am not into this blogger judging. I've read the news about one of the blogger today but I am sorry. If you ask about my public opinion. I am not going to comment anything. Everyone has their own right to reveal  or not to about who they really are. In life we have a choice. Either we want to live with someone who can love and take care us till death do us apart or live with fake lies people. Who life depends on pretty lies they put on peoples' lives. It applies to blogger life as well. You just have to choose. Either keep collecting stone or start living your life on the right path. You choose. He - He like me I want my fairy-tales.

Hello people,

I just woke up. I don't think am drunk last night. LOL.

Anyway, there is this Doctor keep on calling me and keep asking me to add him on Facebook.
Damn! It was in the office last year that I picked up the wrong call and he keeps chasing me until now. WTF.
And someone from the office gave my personal number some more. Seriously.

Why today so many distractions????


WHY? WHY? I want sleep also cannot.

Now that I am awake I feel like slapping people. By the way, tomorrow is Valentine day.

Anybody wants to date me or not?? Ha-Ha

I am still thinking. Look at my finger. So empty. Okay now I am going out to buy 4D.