6th April 2013

I managed to reach Singapore at 11:49am. The weather was pretty much fine. The first thing which I noticed about Singapore was there were trees all along the road from the Changi Airport heading to the city. It makes me feel more like coming back home.

Here is the first photo I took as soon I got in his car.

I told him about Boon Tong Kee which I found on the net few weeks back. It seem to be the famous Chicken Rice shop in Singapore. The chicken was fine but I think the taste was not as what I am expecting. But overall, it was okay.

And by the way, this is how SG car park coupon looks like.

Later that day, we took the cable car at Faber Mount to Sentosa Island. We don't really plan on it. We just thought, it would be nice to ride the cable car and get the feeling and return back to the city after that.

Anyway, we got ourselves a way to the Underwater World after that. And you have no idea what had happened to me. I felt so regretted to stumble upon the snakes dude. Eww, you have no idea how stink it was and I was like Oh my God I smell like a snake. However, it was a good exposure.

As for dinner, we went to the Mr.Bean Cafe. The name was pretty much funnier to me but I swear to God, the name is really Mr.Bean Cafe. I did not take any photo as I am too tired and hungry.

I managed to walk around Clarke Quay for a bit. How I wish I could get drunk and enjoy all the songs playing at Clarke Quay that night but hmm - maybe next time.

I am not sure how does Heroin taste like. I am not so sure how does Methadone works on the body as well.
But I know, the strong will to live will be the best weapon to survive.

It was pretty dry and hot Sunday afternoon that I decided not to write at Alexa's Journey anymore. It has been abused too much. It was obviously my fault. And I don't have that much interest to be that pretty known blogger writer either.

It was quite sad when I did not set up a filter to every post that I am about to publish.

Anyway, looking back;

The first reason when me and my cousin set up the old blog last time was just to blurt out our thoughts and feeling. I am not really up for blogging that much so I keep on writing for another blog of mine ( on and off ) until we both decided to go with our separate ways. A year or two years after that, I decided to write again and deleted some of the un-related post ( at the same blog where we once shared) just to keep away all the confusion. But what I felt now is that, the blog has been abused so much especially when I never control the post which I've written and keep it published publicly.

I think now is the best time to let go the old post . I have the strong instinct that a new start is just what I really need for a kick start.

Besides, I need to keep the old blog away from my new job. As pictures are everywhere and I don't wish people to know my personal life especially the love of my life.

I may sound too cocky. But let us put this way, you may not like it when your Managing Director is reading your update on the blog every morning and I would not want to enter my office with my shaking heart.

Have a blesses Sunday everyone.

The mood forecast was clearly positive, I literally had turned on my positive-alarm to this new job obviously even though it was short notice.

Woke up as early at 5:45am and I left for work like 6:30am. Amazingly, I am an early bird today. I never come to work so early like today.

The place is clearly a strange place to me. So I brought my yogurt along and luckily I kept some crackers with me. I tried to get some sleep but my eyes got stabbed by the sunlight. So I decided to start my reading on my newly bought book yesterday.

I did not really start my work today. I came in for an early training and God, I've been writing and jotting quite a lot of important stuff ever since I could remember.

I like the accounting system. I loved how does it work smoothly and how it's provide all the data which I needed. It's clearly cure my rotten brain after being rested for 11-months. That was pretty long enough for a fast person like me.

I have to admit that I felt like I just had some grass as I am completely sleepy. I really need to adjust my timing and you have no idea how I am really struggling to pull myself back together - AS I've been yawning since the morning itself.

By the way, I met new friends. Their name is Kennie, Adeline and I forgot the other lady's name. I'll ask tomorrow.

Anyway, I survived. I managed to survive.

P/S I miss him. I MISS HIM. I miiss you D.

"I think it's safe to say you know the least about anything of anyone in this room." - Hoodwinked

We were having some coffee when she comes and approach us.
I have to admit that she freaked me out and it ruined my day. Not because of something else but she tensed me up.

She was talking to us like almost 30-minutes and I have not ordered any drinks yet. She asked me why didn't I say hi to her. And that was really amazed me for God sake. I didn't know that I've become a favorite over here. For a moment I thought she got the wrong person but when she called me by my name I was mesmerized.

I can choose to say NO when she asked for my number but I somehow have this kind of respect for older people. It was such a pain when she keeps coming to our table and keep dragging me to sit with her. I am wondering why would she wanted to do that.

And, I don't expect people will remember me.

When I tendered my resignation a month ago, the news spread way too fast.
I've been there for like 11-months and it was really amazing that actually people do really notice me.
They've arranged tons of farewell luncheon and dinner for me and they brought me gifts.
The most important thing, they remember my name.

I don't remember being nice to anybody.

Anyway, it's been a tiring day today. And I am tired.

"I can take life as quickly as I can give it." - Fired Up.

Mom called me early morning today.

As we talked, I can hear the Hillsong's was playing at the back.

I love my parents.

Let me tell you something, last Saturday I flew to Singapore.

And it's remind me of going back to Kota Kinabalu . Although KK is not that modern as Singapore yet but some of the roads remind me something about my hometown and the best part the people itself.

I am not trying to judge anything here, but the people reminds me of being at my own place. 

Back at my hometown, we are free to wear anything and nobody will ever says anything about it.

I don't have to worry if my pants that I am wearing is too short or my sleeveless is far too tight that it shows my cleavage. Everything just so relax.

Well, please don't get me wrong. I am not having and issue here. This is just my blurting out. About how I feel so homie back at Singapore.

I love all the trees along the way. And I fall in love with the city when I see people walks their dogs in the middle of the city.

Speaking about my parents. They were telling me that they went to Church and had some BBQ later that day. They had some of my relatives coming in for lunch. Mom told me, I should be home because Dad did the best BBQ in the world. And I told mom, how people still mis-interpret my name and so on. I told her how people thought that I come from the Philipines because of my look. I told her there was this lady speaks to me in Tagalog when I was inside the plane to Kuala Lumpur. And my Mom just laughed. She said, don't worry you are my daughter. Laugh out loud.

So, Easter just passed.

It's April. What is your biggest sacrifices?

I have had people walk out on me before, but not - When I was being so charming - Blade Runner

Last night was the greatest night ever.
Not because I was in Singapore but that's because I have my boyfriend around.
From what I remember we were having some issues the last few days.
But seeing him smiling and waving at me right through  the entrance door is the happiest moment ever. And -
Having him hugging me tight and holding my hands while we were walking makes me feel so good. It feels like I am whole again. Complete. Loved.

But I understand that everybody have different attitude and character.

And that something that I ( I rather like to put it as in 'we' ) need to learn and understand.

It's April and I am still holding strong to my Long Distance Relationship.

I have to admit that it's not an easy job to do especially when my mobile signal get crazy ( all the times ) and that happened when I really need to talk with him.

It's not easy as well when I am expecting his text and he stuck with tons of work.

I just need to study him and he need to study me too.

There is this famous quotation that I heard from somewhere. It said, we are all given second chances in everyday of our life, but at the times we don't usually take them.

Everyone made mistakes. Who doesn't.

And I choose to be positive. Because I know, nothing comes easy.

Good night.