But a dream is much better. Even if - it's just a fantasy.

Sometime in life, to avoid disappointment is when we stop expecting anything from other people.

I finally finished my second big project. I've been working on them since 3-months ago. I've been staying in till 10pm almost everyday without anybody noticing. Eating out late and sneaked out for movie every Wednesday and had nightmares almost everyday. So this explains my dark circle under my eyes. Now, I need a good kiss and a tight hug to put me to sleep, lol.

There was a time where I can be such a nasty. I shoot things straight away. And knowing me, I got pissed off easily when I am in the middle of some important stuff which require me to think a lot. I get irritated easily when people come to me and asked me some stupid question or make some stupid remarks. I'll give my middle finger on that. Everyone has their own flaws, so do I.

So, I come to the point that some friends can be called a good friend and some are hi-hi bye-bye friend. I have to admit this -  that I value  friendship a lot. I do not make a raw assumption over them. And certainly I would not betray them or walk away when they are in needs. But being a human, we tends to kill each other. It feel some sort of winning a big business. I can't deny I've been surrounded by this kind of people everyway and it almost impossible to trust anyone. Some will only call you when they need something from you. Some will only call you because you got cute cousins and some will only find you because you've got what they need. WTF. Excuse me. I say the vulgar word and it doesn't mean that I am a bad girl.

Trust me, it feels good to be the real you.
Be proud of who you are. It doesn't matter what your colors are. Your shape or how many freckles you've got over your face. Or even if you don't have symmetrical faces like Rolanda. He He.

Good night :)

I always have a different view about how life is. At my age now I think I am being adult enough to have my own judgement over things. I remember when I was a kid, I used to listen to people a lot. Because good girls are like that. When I went to college, I do things which I don't like but still keeping my chin up because good girls listen to adult.

I get into my first relationship when I was like 24 years old. It was a long distance relationship and we were 6700 miles away from each other. I was a way bit clingy back then. But it has never come to my intention to put pressure on my ex. Well we both young and we don't know exactly what we both wants in life. It didn't last long but I learn that love doesn't mean anything if you are not willing to make a commitment.

I told myself back then that, I must not only think what I want but knowing what He wants as well.

You know sometime, life is a bit strange. We never knew what is going to happen in the future. We have no clue who we gonna ended up with.I am not sure mine as well but I never stop believing in whatever it takes, good heart leads to good people.

Have a nice day.

for some reason she unpacked her stuff again.

she saw herself putting back all her outfits back into her closet.

i felt stupid.

-

She felt her cheeks flush. She is trying to figure out what it was.

I can do the same thing over and over again.

I can even listen to the same Gotcha call again and again.

I can even watch the same video over and over again.

Once when I was out with one of my friends they told me that I was crazy. They said, " I am going to vomit blood if you tell me you still keep watching the Alex wassabi Video again."

And yes, I did. I even watched them on the vid this morning. And I even "liked" their page on Facebook.

They are cool and funny.

So my latest obsession is listening to the Gotcha call at Hitz.Fm everyday. Aunty said I am crazy. Aunty was asking why am I keep listening to the same Gotcha call again and again. I said, it was funny!. I even get them recorded on my cellphone. 

You see, I have passion on things or stuffs I like. When I said I like writing, I will keep on writing even if there are people who got confused or whatever sort of things is. I don't give a damned. Because it is me who decide my own story and how it have to be written like. I don't need other people to tell me to what to write  because I am the only one who hold my own stories and for what ever reason is I have my very own reasoning.

Sometimes, I always have the thought that we need to explore more further to keep the brain going to the right direction. Be more flexible. Be more positive. Be more outgoing. Keep the conservative thought aside and blah blah blah.But some people doesn't bring their brain with them sometime.Perhaps they keep their brain inside the bag or leave it somewhere maybe. Or, keep at home for what??. Laugh out loud. They seem like they know what are they talking but for God sake they don't even know anything at all. In Malaysia, we call it,Bodoh Sombong.

And there are some people who put a judge to each other and expect an explaination for stuffs which they don't have the rights to know or deserve to. I don't set the rules here but I just got sick with conservative people. They don't bring their brain bah!. They keep assuming stuffs which exactly not the right thing to do.  This is what we call shallow minded people right?.

Hello people, wake up.

Anyway, my point is conservative people are not cool.

Whatever, I don't give a damn for people like this. What is much important now, you monster get you ass here down in KL!NOW,lol.

Have a nice weekend.

While Taylor Swift busy writing a song about her love life experience, she at the other side of the world blog about her book of life. Although maybe nobody really read.

She met him again for the second time. She felt like this time she is much more comfortable talking to him although she don't talk that much. She likes it when he started to talk and she get excited listening to his adventures of life. At one time, she felt like she has not been laughing like this for quite sometime.

She hates it when she have so many things to say but she can't put it in words. So she smiled and keep smiling. She talked a little and keep nodding. Little did she know, he started to asked her to repeat the things which he just said for the last of 5-mins and so. She got shocked as she was busy observing him.

" So okay, what did I just said just now?."
"So okay,can you repeat what did I just said?."

This is extraordinary. She remember once when friends keep on complaining about her talking too much.  Because talkative quite represent how herself really are. She talk about her thought and she share about her feeling. And when she write, she write with love and passion.

She asked herself, was it normal to feel comfy with a stranger who you just met 2-days ago?.

They were sitting face to face. She quietly looked at him. He was excited ordering some food for the dinner. He didn't even noticed that she was looking straight to his eyes.

She said, this is the man who irritates her so much over the connection. This is the man who sent her that crazy messages. This is the man who just stood her up at Starbuck. This is the man who none stop talking and called her out for crab while she was having fever and flu. And this is the man who keep bragging about his Iphone. She said he is crazy.

They ate and talked.
And she was at turmoil.

it was so cold today. the rain makes me feel gloomy.

i failed to feel my heart again. i was drenched.

it was so cold today that i can't barely feel my heart again.

and again,i was searching for the rainbow but i was drenched.

it was so cold today that i can't hardly breathe in.

i wonder why the sky so blue  that i failed to register the dark skies today.

i am drenched.

for a little bit more,the atmosphere seem to be fallen into pieces.

i wonder if it can be reverse?

what is 36 minus 12??

Sometime busy life makes we forget who we really are.
Sometime the needed of life makes we forget about God.

For God always think about us no matter what happened.

I am born as a Catholic and I spent my first 10 years or so for sunday school.
I always remind myself why couldn't I spend my one or two hours of time going to God House?

It surprised me that I can spend more than 3-hours for other things.
I was out with a friend a couple of weeks ago. And while we were waiting for our food, I asked her do you go to church?. I didn't go last week and mom was asking me. And she replied, I don't pray. None of us in my family go to church or pray or what-so-ever. What is the need of that?.

When she told me that, I run out of words and kept quiet.

And yesterday, Michael was sharing something about how he grow in Christian. He told us, he used to spend his time alone as he wants to concentrate on study but it turned out that he got F for his school project although he have been working hard on it. And he was wondering, a friend of him travelled so far every week to God house and spend half of his time for church activities and he can still get a good grade.

Sometimes where tend to think about God only when we have problem/s. This is normal.
And sometime when we have given everything to God and yet we still failed we tend to push God.
Because we think God doesn't love us.

Don't give up on God that easy. For God always good. He will never let you down.


I'll hold on to what is true though I cannot see.

Have a blessed Monday. Never stop believing. Trust and have faith.

Not Ordinary Yours

Hi call me Alexa. I come from Kota Kinabalu. My mom origin is in Kota Belud which is an hour plus drive from  KK city. She worked as a Primary School Teacher. She taught Maths,Bahasa and Arts. But that was long time ago now she is a full time housewife.

Hi you can call me Leen. I have a very unique registered name and my friends always have a difficulty to pronounce my name correctly. But that was okay. My dad origin is Keningau. He works as a journalist and he still write for Sabah Times. Wonder which one is my dad?. Yes he have a screen-name like what I got on my facebook. You know it is hard to trust people nowadays and I realized I have that symptom which is kinda hard to let go. Maybe experience taught me much.

Hi some friends call me Lexa. I love roadtrips although I have not travel that much yet but YES I am planning to sometime this year. I love dancing and if you know me well, you'll know how well I dance. I love writing although I always have an issue with the grammar but things can get better. Am I right?. Say yes please.

Just if you ever wonder, I am a Catholic who have a unique registered name. I come home for Christmas and I exchanged gifts and I sleep the whole day during boxing day. I wonder if this year Christmas will be something new for me. It could be. Never stop believing. My dad is a Kadazan and my mom is Dusun. But it is quite ashamed as I don't speak Kadazan. But worry not, things can get better. Am I right?. Keep your faith!

I love outdoors activities so much. Apart from driving aimlessly, I do badminton,futsal and cycling. But sometime I do hang out with friends for beers and coffee. I don't drink like almost every week but sometimes   we did that just for the sake of catching up.

I love my friends so much. They keep me alive and crazy. Sometime I miss them. And when I miss them I will call them for dinner or coffee. But most of the time they can't make it. And if they able to make it, they'll come late. But that was okay. I am quite understanding but sometime I am not.

I am cheerful,talkative and pretty. Laugh out loud. Pretty in my own way. That's what I am trying to tell you.
I present myself in my own way. It is kinda hard to understand me for the first time but believe me,the more you know me the more you'll think I am interesting. Laugh out loud. I think now I write like Boey.

I don't talk to a stranger and I do not respond to a stranger. Just that sometime I can be crazy and I did risky stuff. But I don't do it all the time only when I am curious. I can say I am quite a risk taker.

I do Yoga  and I am loving it. I was at my 75-kg last time and now I feel good with myself. I believe that striking pose does not needed here. Just be comfortable with yourself and confidence like I did. Yeah!

I am a pet lovers. One time my male friend told me how much he hates cat. I said gosh, you are terrible. Well people have their own choice. But having a long time partner who love pets is cool. Anyway, I love puppies and cats. And you know what, I just got myself two little guppy fish today. I named them Happy and Funny. I know, don't ask me what's with the name.

Apart from being a movie junkies I love reading. I got tons of book back in my home town and I just can't stop buying a books.I wish I can write my own book someday. Maybe I should marry a creative industry people who understand my interest much.

I always have a different view on certain issue. And sometime normal people have the difficulties to register my opinion or my idea. I like something which is extraordinary different. Well doesn't that makes you different from other people?

I never tell people this, but I always fall to a  guys who have different view on normal things. These are the people who can register my thought and feeling. But it ain't easy to find this creative minded. Laugh out loud.

I am quite spontaneous but I realized that I am more wiser nowadays.

Now do I sound too much? Oh my dream guy is someone who is at least 10-years older than me. Why? Because they make sense. Laugh out loud.

Have a great Saturday.

Day 2

She looked at him for the first time. She remembered, he gave her that smiled.But she wasn't sure if it was real.


She wasn't sure how to react for him.

So..

They went for their first dinner together.

She remembered when he told her his favourite brand.
She remembered when he told her his regular cologne.

He said, "you must remember this..".

She was stunned.

And...

She even remembered how he kept telling his Iphone is the best phone in the world.

She then looked at him and she smiled. She telling herself that, he must be crazy.

She let him talked and I can tell she was laughing all the way out.

And as she was trying to register him down inside her mind, she was trying to figure out who he really is.

A stranger who come in surprise.

People react in a lot of different ways. I am curious.

-To Be continued-

Day 20- Favourite Colour and why.

I don't really have any favourite colour. But if I was asked to choose.
Maybe I go for Blue,Pink and Green.

But I do love Red,Black,White,Maroon,Yellow.

If I was asked to choose for the second time, I would say my favourite colours would be rainbow colours.
They have all the colours there. But I only have to choose one.

For some reason, I don't have any clue why I love all these colours. Do we really have reason? 
Do you have reason why do you fall for some one then?


Sometime, I don't understand why do we have to choose. Should we live by the rules of life?
YES. We all live by rules. We are born to choose our favourite colour in life.

"Never take some one for granted, hold every person close to your heart, because you might wake up one day and realize, that you have lost a diamond, while you were too busy collecting stones."

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Sometime I wondered why do people have nicknames. 
Maybe that's how they remember each other or maybe it's fun to have a nick name.

Sometime when I think back I got a cool nick name back at home.
I told mom that I have a long weird registered name and a cool nick name. And she just laughed.

So one day, I decided to combined my registered name with my nick name and it turned out so well.
People recognized me quite fast apart from the fact of being Kadazan which already made me sound like a foreigner.


That at least made me quite popular a while - maybe just for a day,lol.

So what is my nickname?. 

every petal have their own stories.

Rose 1

But I couldn't say a word right from the beginning I saw him. 

She was standing in front of the coffee shop. Trying to figure out something. Her eyes was looking everywhere trying to catch a pair of eyes which she recognize.

She went in. Everyone seem to be strangers. She saw one man was sitting at the corner. She was thinking,if it could be him."But he is not looking at me," she was talking to herself.

She grabbed her phone. "Which one is u?".

No reply. 

" He stood me up...".

She went out and sit hopelessly at one corner. She said, "I just couldn't believe it he stood me up...".

And the moment she gave up. She just realized he was standing right in front of her.

-To Be Continued-

So today is my birthday.
We were working out late for some pending project which is due by this coming Friday.
I am struggling to finish the whole thing ever since..
And now;
Everything seem to be fine.

Well actually I was quite sad because this monster went sleep straight away and I thought he forgot about my birthday, pai seh! So after all the birthday wishes and birthday cake blowing I went off sleep wishing for the next day to be greater.

And it did.

So to make a story.

My best friend came to office and I was so happy seeing her face after 2 months.

And, I thought since it is my birthday  - I will be in the office late. And I did.

I thought I am going to  hit the red light at Asia Jaya and I did.
I thought I am not going to diet since it is my birthday and I did.
I thought I am going to disturb my two favourite marketing colleagues and instead of disturbing them, I disturb the wrong person. Whoa.


Went out for lunch and I did silly stuffs. Laughed Out loud. But I am glad at least it showed that I have the guts to do that.

Went back office and did my work like a good girl. And there it goes, a monster texted me says that he will be calling me by 4:15pm. It was 4:15pm and there was no sign of him calling instead a big roses came by and YES Alexa. YOU!. You got a roses. A 36 red roses.

I was like, WTF.

Yes, my dear director. You made my day. You really really really did.

Thank you.It's lovely and you are so sweet. Damned are you telling me now that fairy tales do exist?
I hate you.

From that someone who never heard what is kadazan before. Well, this is the best flower in the world like you said.

So today I am thinking what am I suppose to do for my birthday tomorrow.
This evening friend invited me for a movie screening,Mama. But I said no as I am staying in for some pending projects.


So today aunty cooked some dinner for us. It was the best nyummy food ever.
I miss mom.

So for the next couple of hours, it will be my birthday.

Happy Birthday Alexa.

Don't tell me you don't know who is Mark Travis.

Someone told me that sometime fairy tales do come true.
I am not so sure about this.

Do Fairy Tales really exist?

A prince charming come to rescue a blur princess who thought the world is going to end real soon.

I remember when I was a kid, mom bought me a fairy tales books. She bought me two books. Cinderella and Snow White. I hate Cinderella because I think the story is ridiculous. I told mom, I hate Snow White too because I think that doesn't happen in Malaysia.

Then mom asked, how do you wanted a fairy tales look/sound like then?

I forgot what did I answered. But I am sure it was some kind of bullshit.

So..

If you ever got a chance to change the history ... how do you wanted it to be then?

As for me I don't want to change anything because she know this year is going to be an awesome year.

She never stop believing and trusting God. I guess Santa Clause knows much that I've been really a good girl last year.

Have a good weekend. Next week is my birthday.

Hugs.

P/S Someone told me I just met with Mark Travis. Damned, so fairy tales do come true.

Shills

I went for a product launching last Friday. I have to admit that it was my first event for this year and seriously it was great.
I love meeting new people and of course I love new product.

When I was small, mom used to tell me that I have to stick to only one product. Never keep on jumping. Well honestly, I never really followed what she said. So I keep jumping from one product to another product.

And I tell you what, I am having quite a combination skin now. I have oily T-Zone and blacheads and of course pimples ( a bit ). Suck!!! I wish I stumble over somebody who can sponsor me a year facial and makeover. LOL.

So the event which I went has been organized by SHILL. Never try their product and I know hell nothing about them. But now I know. I even search them on Facebook.

So..

I never really like PINK. But I was told to dress in Pink/White. So I did. I told Cindy, Cin, I need to shop for my pink dress and she was laughing at me. She said I don't have to. So as I entered, I told myself I am lucky. Safe! I was thinking to wear Black. Lucky I didn't.

The event started well with these two little sexy girls dancing boombastic.

The product is in Pink and they look great. "Soothing and Calming" "Rich in Floral Waters". Can you see?
The product is the perfect gift for this Valentine. Just a friendly reminder.LOL.

The packaging was  superb and the smell is nice. If you are a sucker for Roses then this will be the good choices for you. It smell really good and it makes your skin moisture and supple. I've tried them for almost a week now and I am going to say this product is good. I am going to ask this for my Valentine gift.

I even got my Goodies and guess what? They gave me this Rose Essential Hydrating Toner which locks in moisture.And it is true enough. After using it for like a week I can see difference in my skin. They are more moisture and fair. They even gave me the Rose Hydrating Skin Care Set, I haven't tried them yet but I believe the product is promising.

They are doing some demonstration on how to apply all the product correctly. I am glad I was invited as now I have a clear understanding on how to apply the toner and the moisturizer in the correct way.

Please stay tune for the second product review of my Shills product. As I am going to show you how does it work to my skin. I really have to publish this first as I've been keeping this in my draft that quite long already.

I'll come back. Good night.

Day 18- How would a boy/man impress you?

I know this will never happen. 

But I always thought a man who come over me on our first date with a flowers really impress me much. Even it is meant only a normal dinner but a flowers meant everything to me.

I always thought a guy who always comes with surprises are impressing enough. It doesn't mean that they need to buy you stuffs.Surprises could be anything. I love man with surprises.

I always thought a man who can cook and reads impress me much. Because that's mean they are loving-heart.
I always thought a man who love adventures,outdoors activities and cherish the sunrise and sunset is cool and impressing.

I always thought a man who do things spontaneously is impressing though. You know being your own-self is much better than trying to be somebody else. But do it in the right way :)

And I always thought a man who have good sense of humor is an interesting people since I love to talk and I love to laugh. Life maybe tougher for everyone of us but don't you think it is such a regret to stress yourself about this negative world?

So the bottom line is, I don't set my preferences over guy. Because action speak louder. I am a realistic people,for a guy to impress me- they need to be themselves. They need make the effort. That's all. And flowers. Lol.

Keep Your Smile

I told myself, hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what excite me much? It is because I can sleep until noon.

I told myself,hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what makes me happy? Yes it is because I can go for a movie. Maybe a movie marathon.

I told myself, hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what makes me jumping high?. It is because I can run for Chatime and drink as many as I can.

But for now.. I am sleepy. Because boss made me stayed in and I have to hear him talking for almost 3-hours. I need God now.

Good night everyone. 

Today I went to work and pretended like I am a good girl. I didn't play with my phone today ( actually I did that- when nobody see ).

Today I went to see my boss. We don't really like him because he likes to talk a lot of stuffs which he himself couldn't understand nothing. But since I am a very good girl today, I just smiled and nodded.

Today I did a lot of stuffs. Like doing CN and  doing some paper works. I even  helped to answer the calls. Normally I will shout and say rude things. But today I am just a good girl.

Today I went downstair to packed some food for lunch. Actually, I don't want to eat. But it was so tempting. So I ate.

Today before I sleep, I promised myself that I am not going to eat for 3-days. Let see how I am going to do about it. Good night!

Day 17- If I could be anybody in this world,who could it be?

If I could be anybody in this world, I would say I wanna be myself. But in a different version of Alexa. That would be successful career woman called Alexa who own her own publishing company. Who own a caring,loving and a loyal long term partner.

If I could be anybody in this world, I would be myself but in a different version of Alexa. And that would be, a young generous Alexa who help the poorer and travel all around the world to be the world volunteer society.

If I could be anybody in this world, I would be myself but in a different version of Alexa. And that would be, a successful and young famous writer called Alexa Lynn.

People, be good to yourself because if you don't nobody will.

Have a blast Tuesday. Oh, I went for a dinner with Ashley today. He took me for a walk at IKEA. And look what we had, we had his nyummy Salmon. I told Ashley why does the Brocolli look so huge and he was laughing at me. I ate them and I said yes Ashley it's yummy. Next time I am going to get the beef meet ball. We are going there again :(

Do the salmon look nice to you???

Day 16- What is your idea of fun? 

Photo Credit to Cindy Tong 

I am way too lazy to upload new photos today. I was just woke up and now I don't feel like doing anything. Except writing. I have like tons of entry which I ain't have time to do yet and that is not cool at all. 

My idea of fun? 

My idea of fun would be by driving aimlessly around the town with good music over the radio.
And not forgetting I do dance. I am doing dancing, Yoga and Zumba. Never really tell people the secret of me losing weight that fast. So if I only I got the chance to do either this three, that would more than enough to make me happy. Ain't that what we called FUN?

Reading. Yes, I've been a slower reader nowadays. I've been reading safe heaven since last year and I think I am not going anywhere still. Instead I keep buying more books. But reading makes me happy and it just FUN. Ain't they? 

Travelling. It is FUN as I got the chance to see what other countries seem to be. Although I didn't really travel much but I promised myself I am going to do it more this year. It doesn't matter as long it is out from Kuala Lumpur it is much more okay already. 

What else? Shopping? Movies? Playing games on the phone. Yeah thy are all fun isn't it. I did that like so many times except shopping. It is too risky.Laugh out loud.

The point is, it doesn't matter what you do. As long it makes you happy and you have fun.

Ain't that what we suppose to call FUN? Doing things which makes yourself happy rather than doing what other people do which we think fun. That called shit.

Till then. Have a blast Monday.

Day 14- Something that makes you happy

That something which makes me happy absolutely hanging out with good friends on weekend. I don't really stay at home during weekend except if I really have things to do. I don't want to waste my time by staying at home doing nothing but I did stayed in today. 

That something which makes me happy absolutely when I received an email from my friends from the other side of the world telling me stories about their life there,their countries there,their everything there. I think that is cool enough.

That something which makes me happy absolutely when I got the chance to spend time with my loved ones. It doesn't matter if we only have to sit down and drink only a juice. Holds hand,hugging and tell a stories to each other and maybe shared a kiss.

Well, in real life only two of the above did happened. So basically what makes my day would be being myself. That's all.

P/s today very sien~~~

Day 13- Something you miss

Oh well, since I've been shopping and movies alot.... I won't say I am kinda miss all those stuffs.
Reading? Nope. I don't feel like reading nowadays ( even actually I am struggling to finish all the books now ).

So what it is which I miss? Maybe:

A hug.
A Kiss.
Holding hands.
Telling someone that I care for them.
Telling someone that I love them.
Spend some good time with loved ones.


Or it could be:

Sleeping in the ladies during working time.
Scolding people on the road because they drive too slow.
Fighting with loved ones.
Have an argument with mom ( well I think I did this everytime ).


Or flirting, laugh out loud. Naa, I was joking.

Or getting another tattoo? good idea.


I can't think any now. But I know one thing :) .... beauty sleep....



Have a nice weekend readers!

Day 12- Why do you write

Why do I write? I used to read a lots. And when I read, I used to imagine I was that character.

If you know me long, you'll know how crazy I am with books. 

Yes apart from being a sucker for dresses,movies and dancing I do shop for books.

And since I've always have the difficulty to express my feeling, I used to write a diary. 

And what happened, my mom used to read it secretly.

There was once, I went MIA and she went in my room and checked on my diary and she found out about the boys which I have a crush on. Jeez.

And when I went to college everybody seems to blog about everything. I started my own and I blogged just when Kennysia.com has started his and I decided to delete them soon after that because it contains too many un-necessaries stuffs which I don't want my current boyfriend (now ex boyfriend ) know about it.

So now, why did I write again?.

Writing help me to express my feelings and my thought. 

Like now, I need to tell you that you have to catch my breathe. You know who you are. Show me more feeling because I feel nothing.

Anyway readers, never stop believing and show more love. You not gonna regret anything.

Till then.

P/s Your not so ordinary.

This was meant to be posted on New Year Eve but I was completely forgot as I was busy with other "things",LoL. However, readers there you go!

If you are reading this, I most probably on my way to the New Year countdown.

As most of you known, I've fucked up a little on my Twenty Twelve. Although it started pretty well on last January with my surprised Birthday and gifts from closed friends and loved ones. January was pretty awesome.

February has been always my favourite month. KPI review made me alive from death.

March has been the worst month as my company has decided to transfer the whole service sourcing to Manila, Philippines and I have no choice then letting go.

April has been treating me well. I was called for an interview and I started my new job and good career advancement for my resume.

May,June,July,August and September has been my major breakdown. It was more like a six degrees of  separation.


Lucky, I learnt that never wish for things to be easier, wish for yourself to be better. October and November has been the toughest month for me. I thought I fucked up never really guess that the new beginning just started to pour in. And, I started my first cycling event on the month itself. For the record, gaining new rider friends are cool.

And December came. One word to describe,it was AWESOME. I received my first Event Invitation and I started doing Food Review and I started to hang out more than my usual.

Life is beautiful and it is a waste to wake up with regrets.



Things to do in 2013

1. Enroll myself for any baking class.
2. Maintain my weight to 58Kgs.
3.Take at least one photograph every day.
4. Have an adventure. As in, rock climbing, surfing, etc..etc..or do some crazy stuffs.
5. Read all my books.
6. Visit Claire, Gerard and John Ross the writer.
7. Face my fear.
8. Join more events.
9. Get my driving licence.
10. Spend more time with friends and loved ones ( if any ).
11. More movies.
12. Travel more.
13. Get a boyfriend.
14. Hang out more.


To summarize, Twenty Twelve has been my nightmare,bumpy roads all along the ways but I am grateful as I come to appreciate life more than the usual.


Everyone has their own sinking part. So do I. But the past is over. The new journey just begin.
Twenty Thirteen will be greatly AWESOME.And mine just started smoothly.

Happy New Year 2013 all!