Day 20- Favourite Colour and why.

I don't really have any favourite colour. But if I was asked to choose.
Maybe I go for Blue,Pink and Green.

But I do love Red,Black,White,Maroon,Yellow.

If I was asked to choose for the second time, I would say my favourite colours would be rainbow colours.
They have all the colours there. But I only have to choose one.

For some reason, I don't have any clue why I love all these colours. Do we really have reason? 
Do you have reason why do you fall for some one then?


Sometime, I don't understand why do we have to choose. Should we live by the rules of life?
YES. We all live by rules. We are born to choose our favourite colour in life.

"Never take some one for granted, hold every person close to your heart, because you might wake up one day and realize, that you have lost a diamond, while you were too busy collecting stones."

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Sometime I wondered why do people have nicknames. 
Maybe that's how they remember each other or maybe it's fun to have a nick name.

Sometime when I think back I got a cool nick name back at home.
I told mom that I have a long weird registered name and a cool nick name. And she just laughed.

So one day, I decided to combined my registered name with my nick name and it turned out so well.
People recognized me quite fast apart from the fact of being Kadazan which already made me sound like a foreigner.


That at least made me quite popular a while - maybe just for a day,lol.

So what is my nickname?. 

Day 18- How would a boy/man impress you?

I know this will never happen. 

But I always thought a man who come over me on our first date with a flowers really impress me much. Even it is meant only a normal dinner but a flowers meant everything to me.

I always thought a guy who always comes with surprises are impressing enough. It doesn't mean that they need to buy you stuffs.Surprises could be anything. I love man with surprises.

I always thought a man who can cook and reads impress me much. Because that's mean they are loving-heart.
I always thought a man who love adventures,outdoors activities and cherish the sunrise and sunset is cool and impressing.

I always thought a man who do things spontaneously is impressing though. You know being your own-self is much better than trying to be somebody else. But do it in the right way :)

And I always thought a man who have good sense of humor is an interesting people since I love to talk and I love to laugh. Life maybe tougher for everyone of us but don't you think it is such a regret to stress yourself about this negative world?

So the bottom line is, I don't set my preferences over guy. Because action speak louder. I am a realistic people,for a guy to impress me- they need to be themselves. They need make the effort. That's all. And flowers. Lol.

Day 17- If I could be anybody in this world,who could it be?

If I could be anybody in this world, I would say I wanna be myself. But in a different version of Alexa. That would be successful career woman called Alexa who own her own publishing company. Who own a caring,loving and a loyal long term partner.

If I could be anybody in this world, I would be myself but in a different version of Alexa. And that would be, a young generous Alexa who help the poorer and travel all around the world to be the world volunteer society.

If I could be anybody in this world, I would be myself but in a different version of Alexa. And that would be, a successful and young famous writer called Alexa Lynn.

People, be good to yourself because if you don't nobody will.

Have a blast Tuesday. Oh, I went for a dinner with Ashley today. He took me for a walk at IKEA. And look what we had, we had his nyummy Salmon. I told Ashley why does the Brocolli look so huge and he was laughing at me. I ate them and I said yes Ashley it's yummy. Next time I am going to get the beef meet ball. We are going there again :(

Do the salmon look nice to you???

Day 16- What is your idea of fun? 

Photo Credit to Cindy Tong 

I am way too lazy to upload new photos today. I was just woke up and now I don't feel like doing anything. Except writing. I have like tons of entry which I ain't have time to do yet and that is not cool at all. 

My idea of fun? 

My idea of fun would be by driving aimlessly around the town with good music over the radio.
And not forgetting I do dance. I am doing dancing, Yoga and Zumba. Never really tell people the secret of me losing weight that fast. So if I only I got the chance to do either this three, that would more than enough to make me happy. Ain't that what we called FUN?

Reading. Yes, I've been a slower reader nowadays. I've been reading safe heaven since last year and I think I am not going anywhere still. Instead I keep buying more books. But reading makes me happy and it just FUN. Ain't they? 

Travelling. It is FUN as I got the chance to see what other countries seem to be. Although I didn't really travel much but I promised myself I am going to do it more this year. It doesn't matter as long it is out from Kuala Lumpur it is much more okay already. 

What else? Shopping? Movies? Playing games on the phone. Yeah thy are all fun isn't it. I did that like so many times except shopping. It is too risky.Laugh out loud.

The point is, it doesn't matter what you do. As long it makes you happy and you have fun.

Ain't that what we suppose to call FUN? Doing things which makes yourself happy rather than doing what other people do which we think fun. That called shit.

Till then. Have a blast Monday.

Day 14- Something that makes you happy

That something which makes me happy absolutely hanging out with good friends on weekend. I don't really stay at home during weekend except if I really have things to do. I don't want to waste my time by staying at home doing nothing but I did stayed in today. 

That something which makes me happy absolutely when I received an email from my friends from the other side of the world telling me stories about their life there,their countries there,their everything there. I think that is cool enough.

That something which makes me happy absolutely when I got the chance to spend time with my loved ones. It doesn't matter if we only have to sit down and drink only a juice. Holds hand,hugging and tell a stories to each other and maybe shared a kiss.

Well, in real life only two of the above did happened. So basically what makes my day would be being myself. That's all.

P/s today very sien~~~

Day 13- Something you miss

Oh well, since I've been shopping and movies alot.... I won't say I am kinda miss all those stuffs.
Reading? Nope. I don't feel like reading nowadays ( even actually I am struggling to finish all the books now ).

So what it is which I miss? Maybe:

A hug.
A Kiss.
Holding hands.
Telling someone that I care for them.
Telling someone that I love them.
Spend some good time with loved ones.


Or it could be:

Sleeping in the ladies during working time.
Scolding people on the road because they drive too slow.
Fighting with loved ones.
Have an argument with mom ( well I think I did this everytime ).


Or flirting, laugh out loud. Naa, I was joking.

Or getting another tattoo? good idea.


I can't think any now. But I know one thing :) .... beauty sleep....



Have a nice weekend readers!

Day 12- Why do you write

Why do I write? I used to read a lots. And when I read, I used to imagine I was that character.

If you know me long, you'll know how crazy I am with books. 

Yes apart from being a sucker for dresses,movies and dancing I do shop for books.

And since I've always have the difficulty to express my feeling, I used to write a diary. 

And what happened, my mom used to read it secretly.

There was once, I went MIA and she went in my room and checked on my diary and she found out about the boys which I have a crush on. Jeez.

And when I went to college everybody seems to blog about everything. I started my own and I blogged just when Kennysia.com has started his and I decided to delete them soon after that because it contains too many un-necessaries stuffs which I don't want my current boyfriend (now ex boyfriend ) know about it.

So now, why did I write again?.

Writing help me to express my feelings and my thought. 

Like now, I need to tell you that you have to catch my breathe. You know who you are. Show me more feeling because I feel nothing.

Anyway readers, never stop believing and show more love. You not gonna regret anything.

Till then.

P/s Your not so ordinary.

Day 11- Something that pissed you off

Oh,yes I am waiting to post this entry such a long time. Finally.

I am quite a very straight forward person. When I said I am a very straight forward that's mean I AM VERY STRAIGHT FORWARD. I'll say things or stuffs quite straight to the dot but it is depends on the situation. I don't bluntly say nasty stuffs like that to people, I guess maturity says it all.

So what are that something pissed me off will be like a man asking you out for dinner and it turned out he asked you to pay for it. Sorry to say, it is not the right move to impress a lady. I know some male will say why everytime we guys have to pay for a girl. I got it but I think a man who asked a lady out and ask them ( lady ) to pay is such a jerk. 

Ask me, if a man ask me out without me asking them out I will expect for the guy to pay for me. Unless he is my old friend or a friend which I've known long ago then I wouldn't mind paying. It's understood. Mutual understanding.

I have a little chat with a friend of mine recently. We plan for a dinner and movie. And we were like, hey I buy the tickets and you buy the popcorns and drinks for us and I am totally no issue with that. Even if we need to share the bill for dinner. Because he is in manner. Mutual understanding.

I've asked someone just now, hey if you are asking a girl out for the first time will you ask her pay for her meals? Guess what he answered me, "if I am the one who ask her out, I will pay for her."

So my point here, I know it is not easy to earn the dollar but a boy/man who ask a girl/lady out and asked them to pay for the meals (for the first time meeting) is not appropriate.

Secondly, I never be that slim like a runaway model. I've work hard to be what I am now and I am still not happy with myself although now I am at size M. But for the records, I am proud with myself. I don't wanna be somebody else. I just want to be me. And just recently when I was out with some friends, a guy came to me and says I am fat. Holy crap, I was like what did you just said. I make him to repeat again. I smiled and I said okay. The next morning, I recieved a good morning from him saying,"hi sexy my naughty girl..." and the last thing I knew, he invited me for a movie.

You tell me, just 24 hours ago you told me I am fat and the very next day you described me as Sexy and Naughty? and you asked me out for a movie. What are you? Some kind of jokes?. Seriously, I do not give a damned for a man who have no clue how to respect female. 

So my point is, don't crack stupid jokes especially about fat and sex with females. Because that makes you look cheap and stupid.

And thirdly, do not take people for granted. A couple of week ago, a friend of mine asked me to pick up one of her friend for birthday party. I was working that day and the place is quite far from the place which I am staying. Her friend then texted me, "Hey Lexa, are you coming for the birthday? can you come and pick me up ar?". I told her yes I am coming but I will be late. She then said, it will be fine.She will wait for me as long as she have transport. Then I was like, okay cool. Deal. So like usually Lexa, I will text upon leaving the house. As I was on the way to her place she texted me, " you still far ah? how long u reach?". "how long u will reach?" "can u make it fast? I dun want to be late..". 

So feeling pushed, I drove and used the emergency lane and soon I realized she posted her status on Facebook as,

 " I never like to be late but someone doesn't know how to come early.."

I was like, you asked me to pick you up and I already told you I am going to be late and you can post something unmatured stuff like that on Facebook, what the heck.

My point is, I always believe if you are going to follow someone else car you have to follow their time and their plan. Don't just take people for granted or some kind of  being bossy.That is my public opinion.

So that's about it. Actually, there are still a lot more. But enough for this time. See yah!

Day 10- Songs you listen to currently

I am currently listening to Maroon 5 and The Script. If you know me long, you'll know that these two bands has been my favourite band since long ago. 

I love them so much and sometime I wish if I could have a boyfriend like the lead singer. They are both hot especially Adam. I love tattoo guy. They are just bloody hot and rawk. Oh,damned.

So yes, this is it :)

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Apart from losing weight and getting new real friends, I'd like to say I am getting my life back to the track.

Never wish for things to be easier, wish for yourself getting better.

I was in my doom day a couple of months ago.
I was blurred. I was lost.

Sleeping on my bed the whole day, made myself getting high and headache. High because I have no idea what to do. Headache because sleep too much.



So finally I realized,the past is over now.


Life is about moving on and make the very best of yourself.

I am feeling great now.  And yes, I wouldn't trade my life now for anything not worth it.

The past really taught me how to be completely careful and wiser I must say.

Life is too precious and I am not going to lose any bits of anything,everything. 

So, moving on is something which I am really proud for these couple of months.

Can you see my eyes shining?? and less pimples,oh yeah!!

P/S Do not say Good Bye yet, as my new journey just begin.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Although nobody really read this but I am still gonna write and write and write. 
I can't stand by knowing that I couldn't even finish this challenge again this year!

Alright, my short term goals will be :

1. Stick to my diet plan. No more late night sandwic. Because why?, I just gained another kg. Look, I was XXL and now I am M size. You got what I mean?

No More food after 7PM

2. Spend lesser. No more shopping for new books and dress. I have enough. Because why?. I just finished my whole paycheck this month for a books and dresses. I am a shopping addict!

For the record, I finished my entire paycheck for shopping this month.

3. Come to office early no more half an hour late. Because why?... I am late. Usually I reach half or an hour late. I don't want to get fired for a lame reason though.

4. Sleep early.Because why?,eye bag makes me look funny.

So, that's it. Have a good weekend all.

No harm to have more friends than enemy :)

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

I don't know. This is kind of burden to think of. I think my own journey itself has been the biggest impact to myself.
So shall I still have to find a picture of something that has the biggest impact to myself??.

Okay, FRIENDS. If you know me long you know how much I value friendship.
So basically, friends keep me moving on to the better way.

They are my biggest impact.

So here it is,my fav ones.

To be honest, I am not so sure how to finish this 30-days blog challenge. I think I will never going to finish it.
But still, I am working hard on this. So here is my favourite book ever.

The Truth About Melody Browne by Lisa Jewell

The stories are awesome. Imagine when you can't remember anything about your childhood. And the person who you thought your parents isn't the real ones. You have no photo of your childhood and you can't even recall if you have any good friends back then.

When everything so blurred and the only person who can answer your every question has long gone, times will be difficult and complicated.

Well everybody have their own past. It's either the beautiful ones or the bad beautiful memories. You gotta find the truth by yourself.

So this is it,my favourite book ever.

Grand Lexis.The last vacay of year 2012

GOOGLE

To be honest up untill now, I am still wondering how to finish the 30-days challenge. My Thursday was a nightmare and instead soaking up the whole night I decided to wake up early and write something before heading to work later.

A habit which  I wish I don't have it. That would be being emo too easily I guess. That's the only thing which I can think now. Maybe that is not a part of habit at all I guess but I don't bite my nails,I don't even chewing my hair or play the coins inside my pocket.

I can say that I am too extra sensitive nowadays. Maybe the situation which I am in now or the earlier on makes everything even harder to me and when that little thing happened I can't think straight though. 

.....

Picture tells everything.

Lately, I find that I started to distance myself away from him. And maybe him leaving wasn't the end of the world. I am not exactly over him yet but I believe that there is still life without him. I want to see more and now, I know that there is still a lot of new things which I wanna see and I want do. I am just going to throw myself right into it and I wanna get what I settle for.

So what do people notice about me. Maybe my stubbornness or should I say I am quite a tough girl?.

P/S I stop judging myself and I stop letting people judging me. To know me, you have to read the whole of me. Fair enough?

My beautiful fairy life.

Backed then when I was at 68Kg

18th November 2012 - Seapark

For goodness sake,what have I done?
I've lost my own identity for almost 3-years.
I won't let it happen anymore. I feel like I lost my own memory.

Day 01- 15 interesting facts about yourself

I love children. For me,  being a small kid is way much more fun than being an adult. Being a small kid I don't have to worry about anything. 

I am such a forgiver. Don't ask me why.

I asked question a lot. I mean my curiosity is above everything that you could ever imagine.

I am a risk taker. 

I like being describe as weird. For me weird is sexy.

I am so much into crawling creatures documentary i.e snakes.

I value friendship more than love relationship. Nothing bet friendship.

I am a book-holic. I spent two days moving all my books from my old place to the place which I am staying now. Freak?

I love simple unique life. Like driving aimlessly and stop only when I think that's the place I wanna be.

I've been driving for 2-years now and I still don't have my driving lisence yet.

I love writing. I always wanna be a serious writer.

I drink occasionally but I do not smoke.

I do not eat cucumber and tomato. In fact, I hate them.

I was at my 75Kgs before and I am XXL now I am Medium size. Quite an achievement.

Last but not least, I cry easily but I think I am slowly become a tough person now. Life change.


P/s Don't say goodbye as the good thing just about to start.