Looking back

i rmb when I first moved to Seapark, I wrote a note and cried for almost 2-weeks for homesickie tat much.

i went back to Cheras 3-days after tat.i said, i missed my room a lot. Although it was totally empty but still I miss everytheng I left ther.

I missed the smell. I missed the bed. I just missed everytheng.

I neva feel such empty like tat even  when i left my college... I was extremely excited and I can't even wait to start my first job.

Life has been a roller coaster ride to me. I rmb when I first broke up with my first boyfriend.I din cry. Wat I did?.

I din  sleep for like almost 3-days. I played games. I din take my shower and I din had anytheng.Mayb I did,maybe some milk or juice. 

then i rmb how much he dun wan me to smoke. i walked 5-blocks away just to get myself a cigarette. guess wat? it din do me any good. in fact i swear to God, i am not going to smoke again as it makes my tongue burnt. then i hit the club.i said, look i wanna dance and get drunk like nobody watching. i danced. i drunk. I danced and I drunk till the third day I fall sicked.Admitted to hospital.

now,wen i walked out from my last relationship I was like a walking Zombie. Confused and hatred.

i guess my past 3-years of life has really taught me ' bout life.can't really control everytheng but all I cud say I try to control thengs which I cud.

I am fine.