So I thought Wanie was busy with her boyfriend and I drove for late lunch alone. I was at the traffic light and  I was busy looking at my compact powder's mirror just to make sure my hair is cool.

There was this car keep giving me high and low beam since just now and I am pretending like Yo dude I don't give a damn. So I was driving at my own risk. And little did I know it was Kelvin. I was like whoa!

So I dropped by at the Starbuck again just to see Wanie and I found out that Kelvin was there.Like seriously, I really have no clue. Wanie said, there your secret admirer is sitting there. I was like for God sake.

His mom was looking at me and I was like, Wanie can we switch? I think I better sit there. I don't feel comfortable with people looking me like that.

And his mom came by and talked to us. I was like, gosh.
And his mom was telling us that his son is single no girlfriend. I was like, whoa Wanie is single.

I mean this is sound ridiculous but I have to say that I got to know this aunty during Chinese New Year when I visited Starbuck. I felt so guilty for making a quick judgment and i covered it up by talking to her and accompany her quite a few times. And that she asked for my number and told me a little bit about Kelvin. And I was like whoa!

But I managed to escape. Laughed.
And I said, Wanie that aunty is freaking creepy.

And Wanie said, it's okay to be creepy at least we know that person is true for you.

And I am like Whoa!

Sometime they thought that they know me very well. But they not.

My heart made of stone and when I slow down that's mean I am losing hope. Slowly.

I can be very direct to people but at the same time I am hoping the same too.

It's a simple word Yes for the thing which you can and No for the thing you can't.

It is not hard to catch my breath.

I am learning how to react every day. Try as hard to be on the positive side. But I guess, I am the only one who working on things. Maybe I am wrong.

But how to prove it when everything I feel and everything I saw all torn.

This is a ridiculous Fairy Tale I must say.

Help me to understand things.

I am a good girl with a big heart. But now, I am lost.

I don't feel like writing anything today.
I  felt like frozen. But here I am still trying to write something which upsets me. And now after what happened, I can't barely remember what was it about.

I drove to the Starbuck and ordered my drink. And they noticed me.
They are few people around there who noticed me with my hair. They said it look good on me.
It's cool when people notice that little things about me.

The weather some how really freaking hot today and I can't even bear myself to stay at home.
I don't bother to text Wanie because I know that she's out with the boyfriend.

I don't know what I am feeling now.
I wish I knew.

Sometime I wish, He knows how I feel. But people don't change overnight.

Anyway, saw this from one of the blog. It said; You Never Know What You Will Miss Untill You Loss Them.You Never Know What You Will Need Untill You Missed Them.

Seriously, it turned me off.

So Happy Sunday.

Sometime I am wondering what are you doing right now.
Sometime I was wondering did you really cut me off the other day.
There are times like this when, I don't know who you really are.

I wish I can see a video of you or a photo of you everyday, but we are not friends at Facebook. So I have no clue.


Maybe I am not that important.

Boey was writing about how he gets a watermelon as a cake for Ellery's birthday.
I laughed out loud when I got to know that he got Ellery a Banana as a birthday gift.

I told Boey I wouldn't want a Banana for a Birthday Gift. And he said I should ask for Manana which means tomorrow and isn't that diiiirty. Okay right.

So I got this banana yesterday.

I went to visit an old friend today. I tried to make sure I'll reach there before lunch hour.
And I was reading a magazine while waiting for that familiar face to come and pick me up.

It says that, the key to happiness is to face your fear. Everyone has fear so do I. I can seem to figure out what is my fear now. But my brain so frozen to even think about it.


Because, insensitivity feels like a long nightmare dreams.

There is always some truth behind ; Just Kidding
Knowledge behind ; I don't know
Emotion behind ; I don't care

And

Pain behind ; It's okay.