I don't feel like writing anything today.
I  felt like frozen. But here I am still trying to write something which upsets me. And now after what happened, I can't barely remember what was it about.

I drove to the Starbuck and ordered my drink. And they noticed me.
They are few people around there who noticed me with my hair. They said it look good on me.
It's cool when people notice that little things about me.

The weather some how really freaking hot today and I can't even bear myself to stay at home.
I don't bother to text Wanie because I know that she's out with the boyfriend.

I don't know what I am feeling now.
I wish I knew.

Sometime I wish, He knows how I feel. But people don't change overnight.

Anyway, saw this from one of the blog. It said; You Never Know What You Will Miss Untill You Loss Them.You Never Know What You Will Need Untill You Missed Them.

Seriously, it turned me off.

So Happy Sunday.

I've been sleeping the whole day yesterday. Trying to finish up my book but my brain can't suck anymore of it. So I was playing with a few games on the computer, followed by Instagram, Facebook and of course sleeping - that I decided to sign up an account for my blog.

I know this can't be serious. But I'd really done that. So here it is, please like my page xxxxxxooooxxoxxo like loads of it.

Hello people,

I just woke up. I don't think am drunk last night. LOL.

Anyway, there is this Doctor keep on calling me and keep asking me to add him on Facebook.
Damn! It was in the office last year that I picked up the wrong call and he keeps chasing me until now. WTF.
And someone from the office gave my personal number some more. Seriously.

Why today so many distractions????


WHY? WHY? I want sleep also cannot.

Now that I am awake I feel like slapping people. By the way, tomorrow is Valentine day.

Anybody wants to date me or not?? Ha-Ha

I am still thinking. Look at my finger. So empty. Okay now I am going out to buy 4D.

what is 36 minus 12??

Not Ordinary Yours

Hi call me Alexa. I come from Kota Kinabalu. My mom origin is in Kota Belud which is an hour plus drive from  KK city. She worked as a Primary School Teacher. She taught Maths,Bahasa and Arts. But that was long time ago now she is a full time housewife.

Hi you can call me Leen. I have a very unique registered name and my friends always have a difficulty to pronounce my name correctly. But that was okay. My dad origin is Keningau. He works as a journalist and he still write for Sabah Times. Wonder which one is my dad?. Yes he have a screen-name like what I got on my facebook. You know it is hard to trust people nowadays and I realized I have that symptom which is kinda hard to let go. Maybe experience taught me much.

Hi some friends call me Lexa. I love roadtrips although I have not travel that much yet but YES I am planning to sometime this year. I love dancing and if you know me well, you'll know how well I dance. I love writing although I always have an issue with the grammar but things can get better. Am I right?. Say yes please.

Just if you ever wonder, I am a Catholic who have a unique registered name. I come home for Christmas and I exchanged gifts and I sleep the whole day during boxing day. I wonder if this year Christmas will be something new for me. It could be. Never stop believing. My dad is a Kadazan and my mom is Dusun. But it is quite ashamed as I don't speak Kadazan. But worry not, things can get better. Am I right?. Keep your faith!

I love outdoors activities so much. Apart from driving aimlessly, I do badminton,futsal and cycling. But sometime I do hang out with friends for beers and coffee. I don't drink like almost every week but sometimes   we did that just for the sake of catching up.

I love my friends so much. They keep me alive and crazy. Sometime I miss them. And when I miss them I will call them for dinner or coffee. But most of the time they can't make it. And if they able to make it, they'll come late. But that was okay. I am quite understanding but sometime I am not.

I am cheerful,talkative and pretty. Laugh out loud. Pretty in my own way. That's what I am trying to tell you.
I present myself in my own way. It is kinda hard to understand me for the first time but believe me,the more you know me the more you'll think I am interesting. Laugh out loud. I think now I write like Boey.

I don't talk to a stranger and I do not respond to a stranger. Just that sometime I can be crazy and I did risky stuff. But I don't do it all the time only when I am curious. I can say I am quite a risk taker.

I do Yoga  and I am loving it. I was at my 75-kg last time and now I feel good with myself. I believe that striking pose does not needed here. Just be comfortable with yourself and confidence like I did. Yeah!

I am a pet lovers. One time my male friend told me how much he hates cat. I said gosh, you are terrible. Well people have their own choice. But having a long time partner who love pets is cool. Anyway, I love puppies and cats. And you know what, I just got myself two little guppy fish today. I named them Happy and Funny. I know, don't ask me what's with the name.

Apart from being a movie junkies I love reading. I got tons of book back in my home town and I just can't stop buying a books.I wish I can write my own book someday. Maybe I should marry a creative industry people who understand my interest much.

I always have a different view on certain issue. And sometime normal people have the difficulties to register my opinion or my idea. I like something which is extraordinary different. Well doesn't that makes you different from other people?

I never tell people this, but I always fall to a  guys who have different view on normal things. These are the people who can register my thought and feeling. But it ain't easy to find this creative minded. Laugh out loud.

I am quite spontaneous but I realized that I am more wiser nowadays.

Now do I sound too much? Oh my dream guy is someone who is at least 10-years older than me. Why? Because they make sense. Laugh out loud.

Have a great Saturday.

So today I am thinking what am I suppose to do for my birthday tomorrow.
This evening friend invited me for a movie screening,Mama. But I said no as I am staying in for some pending projects.


So today aunty cooked some dinner for us. It was the best nyummy food ever.
I miss mom.

So for the next couple of hours, it will be my birthday.

Happy Birthday Alexa.

Keep Your Smile

I told myself, hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what excite me much? It is because I can sleep until noon.

I told myself,hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what makes me happy? Yes it is because I can go for a movie. Maybe a movie marathon.

I told myself, hey it is going to be weekend soon.

And you know what makes me jumping high?. It is because I can run for Chatime and drink as many as I can.

But for now.. I am sleepy. Because boss made me stayed in and I have to hear him talking for almost 3-hours. I need God now.

Good night everyone. 

Today I went to work and pretended like I am a good girl. I didn't play with my phone today ( actually I did that- when nobody see ).

Today I went to see my boss. We don't really like him because he likes to talk a lot of stuffs which he himself couldn't understand nothing. But since I am a very good girl today, I just smiled and nodded.

Today I did a lot of stuffs. Like doing CN and  doing some paper works. I even  helped to answer the calls. Normally I will shout and say rude things. But today I am just a good girl.

Today I went downstair to packed some food for lunch. Actually, I don't want to eat. But it was so tempting. So I ate.

Today before I sleep, I promised myself that I am not going to eat for 3-days. Let see how I am going to do about it. Good night!

i rmb when I first moved to Seapark, I wrote a note and cried for almost 2-weeks for homesickie tat much.

i went back to Cheras 3-days after tat.i said, i missed my room a lot. Although it was totally empty but still I miss everytheng I left ther.

I missed the smell. I missed the bed. I just missed everytheng.

I neva feel such empty like tat even  when i left my college... I was extremely excited and I can't even wait to start my first job.

Life has been a roller coaster ride to me. I rmb when I first broke up with my first boyfriend.I din cry. Wat I did?.

I din  sleep for like almost 3-days. I played games. I din take my shower and I din had anytheng.Mayb I did,maybe some milk or juice. 

then i rmb how much he dun wan me to smoke. i walked 5-blocks away just to get myself a cigarette. guess wat? it din do me any good. in fact i swear to God, i am not going to smoke again as it makes my tongue burnt. then i hit the club.i said, look i wanna dance and get drunk like nobody watching. i danced. i drunk. I danced and I drunk till the third day I fall sicked.Admitted to hospital.

now,wen i walked out from my last relationship I was like a walking Zombie. Confused and hatred.

i guess my past 3-years of life has really taught me ' bout life.can't really control everytheng but all I cud say I try to control thengs which I cud.

I am fine.

Grand Lexis.The last vacay of year 2012

18th Nov 2012- Seapark

Like A Pill

Really surreal. I've moved to this new place and I've encountered so many new things day by day. Life for me now is much more fun compared to my none-moving life previously. I am happy now. Happy and more happier.

So for a start, I am going to start with the 30-days blog challenge eventhough I never really finish it before.

Day 01- 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- What do people notice about you?
Day 03- Childhood memories
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn't have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you've been to
Day 06- Favourite book(s)
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to currently
Day 11- Something that pissed you off
Day 12- Why do you write
Day 13- Something you miss
Day 14- Something that makes you happy
Day 15- My fashion sense is best described as
Day 16- What is your idea of fun? 
Day 17- If I could be anybody in this world,who could it be?
Day 18- How would a boy impress you?
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Favourite Colour and why.
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- A fitness regime
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your ex
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Dream destination
Day 28- What is my typical day like?
Day 29- If I were to fall to my neighbour, I would..
Day 30- A photograph of town/city you lived in.