I don't get it why we can forgive but yet not to forget. I just don't get it how people can easily push you away after all the things you've done for them. I don't actually get it why do we have to let go things that we care so much and later of the day it comes back and you just don't know how to react about it. I just don't get - how the things that you least expected happened.Now..I might...

I woke up this morning with Him on my mind.And obviously I keep checking on my mobile phone because that is the only way for us to communicate apart from Skype.Let me tell you something about my boyfriend.My boyfriend always on the run. So by the time I can get him on Skype it will be really late and I have to work the next morning. And honestly, I miss my boyfriend - now. I miss the day when...

I fall in love with Jason Chen's song since the first day I saw him on YouTube. His song keeps me moving with my writing and my song. I wish I could ever sing with him one day. And if I could not, I wish he can sing the song that I've written quite sometimes. Anyway, I just found out that he came by to Singapore and I missed his show. Quite frustrating. And; It was clearly not that very productive...

Another week without my man.I wish you were here.Stay Positive because it's worth living. Have a good weeke...

Woah, I was talking to my boyfriend when my cousin came in. He was looking at me one kind. Not that silly one kind but that "wtf my cousin have a bf now". I was secretly looking at him when he passed by me and I was like "hey! my cousin is handsome". Laugh Out Loud. I don't really talk to this cousin but when we were little we used to play together and I used to make him cry. Now that we...

This is all I could think for Boey's new book cover. I suggested him to draw himself and River sitting next to each other at the park but then again it doesn't seem to stay in line with the title itself. Yeah he was right enough about that.Well, I am planning to draw a boy holding a balloon back then but I am not really good with drawing.What I am trying to say here is, a balloon represents a memory by a young kid. And he is holding...

Since I don't have any brother or sister, I get too attached to people who I am comfortable with so easily. I don't know why, but I am quite clingy sometime (maybe most of the time). But don't get me wrong, I am not that friendly to everyone. It takes some time for me to even create a conversation to strangers. But normally, I'll smile and will do my scanning ( you know I like doing that ). However I am quite spontaneous I must...

I am born with a straight black hair. But I always wish to have a long curly hair. When I was a kid, I used to force mom to bring me for a hairdo. And mommy will say, no you can't perm your hair. That was quite frustrating!!! So what I did, when we migrated to KL I get my hair done. It looks good for a week and I looked like so out of the place a week after that. Then I get my hair straighten. Yes it looks fine but it so plain...

I am approximately 197 miles away from my boyfriend. We are fine. It is normal to fight sometimes. There are times when I get upset with him. And there are times when I just could not get hold of him. But amazingly he always takes thing positive. And that means something to me. Honestly; When I first met him, my mind was all over the place. I am sitting next to him staring at him and wondering...

Sometime I could be out of my mind. There are times when I just say things spontaneously without even have the thought of I might get other people offended. But seriously, I didn't mean it that way. Anyway, my mommy always said that if I've got nothing nice to say I better keep my mouth seal. But I always think that being straight forward is good. Because I don't want to bite my tongue till it...

It's how you change the ending. Because the beginning of the chapter has been ruined...

I always have issues with my name. But then I figure out that it was not only me who having the same issue.Well my name is just fine, nothing wrong with that. The only thing is, my name have this "Binti" and people always misunderstood me. You know what I mean? Ain't you.From where I come from, it is very common to have this "bin" or "binti" especially those who born in the year of 70s and...

When I was little, my mom says that I am too secretive.I find it is really hard to express my feeling. Then I started to write a letter to my mom.I was 16 when I first sent Dad an email.I find it is easy to write rather than saying. But when I really say something - that's mean I really mean it.Because now I come to realize that we only say something when we really really really mean it. Like when...

I am not sure what to write tonight. I've been writing so much but I kept deleting them. Oh I hate this feeling. I hate what I heard. I hate everything. Mom said once that I am good at hiding my feeling.  I am not sure how true it is. I am quite upset. Because I knew it. Anyway, no point writin...

I don't usually get sick that easy but when I did...I'd really sick like really really sick. However I went to work as usual today...only to find out that things get messed up. Anyway, I've got no time for that kind of stupid stuff. So I'd finish whatever I have to do. When everybody gets suspicious - I decided to stay out of the whole sticky situation. Actually, I have nothing much to do anymore....

I am writing this now with my heart sinking. I woke up this morning with a fever and  a sore throat. Today I am sick and upset. Upset because nobody seems to car...

I made a huge mistake by approving strangers to follow me on Instagram. I've been deleting most of my self-portrait pictures from this morning. And I've blocked few people. I felt uneasy when one of this freaking weird man keeps on posting a comment to most of my self-portrait photos. He will "LIKE" most of my new post and when I looked back all his comments I feel like I wanna throw up. So I deleted...

Writing this with myself lying on my bed staring at the ceiling fan spinning. Spinning. And Spinning. I remember doing this long time before. The curtain was closed. I let the music on. Loud. Very loud. There is this pain on my chest. Tried to scream but no ones hear me. It feels like the cold breeze blows my heart. Maybe I am just another fool. Tried to close my eyes but I felt this cold tears...

The thing about my boyfriend is, when he gets busy he forgets about me.The thing about my boyfriend is, he doesn't know how to express his feeling.The thing about my boyfriend is, he always makes me wait.The thing about my boyfriend is, he is good at talking. Call him the philosopher. He got tons of idea or plan in his head and he always got the reason to answer me back,literally. I feel like I am...

I just don't believe it when my HR Manager pulled me into her room. She said, she is happy for my new career and wish me luck but at the same time she is sad for letting me go as she truly like me. I said, whoa - what's that supposed to be. I didn't answer much but I remember for telling her that I am thankful for all the support and so but I need to go as this is my opportunity. And I told...

I've been friends with Jason for like almost a year now. Not really a year but it's going to soon. I remember when we first met I was like texting him inside the car and I looked at him and smiled. He said, silly come out from the car. I refused and he came out and stand next to the driver seat. He is not my boyfriend. Don't worry. And, we were chatting on Whatsapp like everyday. He knows that I...

I'll finish whatever I started.So I break the news today. He looked so shocked.Everyone doesn't seem happy knowing that I am leaving.None of them expecting this news on Monday afternoon.But nothing can stop me anymore. I would never let that happen. I've gone so far now, I made too many tough decisions since last year and I am glad I've overcome my fear.Now that I am done digesting everything, I'll...

Today I woke up and I wished that Ryan Keith is my boyfriend. Or maybe Nash Overstreet. I tell you they are hot dude. And I'm like whoa my latest obsession is Hot Chelle Rae. I always think that guy with ink are hotter. Like me. Laugh Out Loud. Sometime people give the wrong impression to those people who got tattooed on their body. I mean what is fucking wrong with you people?. Having a tattoo doesn't mean that you are cruel....

So I thought Wanie was busy with her boyfriend and I drove for late lunch alone. I was at the traffic light and  I was busy looking at my compact powder's mirror just to make sure my hair is cool.There was this car keep giving me high and low beam since just now and I am pretending like Yo dude I don't give a damn. So I was driving at my own risk. And little did I know it was Kelvin. I was like...

Sometime they thought that they know me very well. But they not.My heart made of stone and when I slow down that's mean I am losing hope. Slowly.I can be very direct to people but at the same time I am hoping the same too.It's a simple word Yes for the thing which you can and No for the thing you can't.It is not hard to catch my breath.I am learning how to react every day. Try as hard to be on the...

I don't feel like writing anything today.I  felt like frozen. But here I am still trying to write something which upsets me. And now after what happened, I can't barely remember what was it about.I drove to the Starbuck and ordered my drink. And they noticed me.They are few people around there who noticed me with my hair. They said it look good on me.It's cool when people notice that little things about me.The weather...

Sometime I am wondering what are you doing right now. Sometime I was wondering did you really cut me off the other day. There are times like this when, I don't know who you really are. I wish I can see a video of you or a photo of you everyday, but we are not friends at Facebook. So I have no clue. Maybe I am not that important...

Boey was writing about how he gets a watermelon as a cake for Ellery's birthday.I laughed out loud when I got to know that he got Ellery a Banana as a birthday gift.I told Boey I wouldn't want a Banana for a Birthday Gift. And he said I should ask for Manana which means tomorrow and isn't that diiiirty. Okay right.So I got this banana yesterd...

I went to visit an old friend today. I tried to make sure I'll reach there before lunch hour. And I was reading a magazine while waiting for that familiar face to come and pick me up. It says that, the key to happiness is to face your fear. Everyone has fear so do I. I can seem to figure out what is my fear now. But my brain so frozen to even think about it. Because, insensitivity feels...

There is always some truth behind ; Just Kidding Knowledge behind ; I don't know Emotion behind ; I don't care And Pain behind ; It's ok...