Somehow I miss this man.
When I first met this monster, I felt like he is kinda weird.

I never meet such a talkative monster in my whole life - I mean not like him. From the very moment I met his eyes and sat next to him his saliva was everywhere - like a machine-gun none stop shooting. There was once, I prayed if he can stop talking and drink his coke ( oh yes, because he was so weird sitting at the wrong place drinking coke ).

Monster talked a lot that he made me blur because I am too busy scanning him from top to bottom. Trying to figure out if he is fake. I don't really get everything he said at first - because I was busy playing with my own thought about him.

Being with him is like solving a puzzle. And I am like a walking dictionary with him like a walking radio.
He described everything with full expression and he seems so excited over the top. And, he will get tripple excited when he talks about his idea. He even gets excited when it comes to Arsenal. Let see if he really gets me an Arsenal's tee. Else I am going to stick with Man-U. Laugh Out Loud. I told him, I am going to sit next to him with me wearing Man-U tee. How is that sound?. Oh, I like this Monster!

For the first month of being with this weird Monster, I have to admit that the adaption are one real fucking hard. It was really hard to fit in with his schedule. I mean you know zero about what he really is. Who is his friends. His best friends. His hang out place. His routines. Or he himself. All I know about Monster is the sisters, the brother and the mom and the kids. And yes, Peter John and another Peter, Jonathan and Nana. And Lai. And another one Amreet which was busy calling him in the middle of the night when we were watching soccer. Plus my mobile line is suck. Whenever we try to have a conversation the line will go dead or I may sound like under-water. Duh~~~~

I felt like sometime he don't think about my feeling.
I felt like sometime I meant nothing to him.

So one day, I decided to write to Monster and recorded myself on video just to let Monster know that I am truly thinking about him.
And I never expect his response.
He responded me very well with this beautiful text, right in the middle of the night.

~~ Dear Monster, do you remember your famous tagline? It is not the Monster.Inc We Scare Because We care, but it was Baby I'll call you very fast within 10-minutes and it turned out to be 5-hours after that. Dear Monster, You're different because you didn't say goodnight before we sleep. You even go missing in the middle of us still texting. I got bengang. But like I said, even if you are in your 50s I will be - still writing to you like now. I will be - still snapping our pictures like how I did lately. Even if it means I need to listen to your talking like forever, I will try my very utmost to respond you as soon as possible but please not about the Pilot or even the Manatee beacuse Manatee also known as Sea-Cow. And I hope you won't crashed yourself to your car door anymore as I am expecting you to crash on me. Happy Valentine again my Monster~~

Weekend! Let's GYM people. Off now. Bye.

I've been sleeping the whole day yesterday. Trying to finish up my book but my brain can't suck anymore of it. So I was playing with a few games on the computer, followed by Instagram, Facebook and of course sleeping - that I decided to sign up an account for my blog.

I know this can't be serious. But I'd really done that. So here it is, please like my page xxxxxxooooxxoxxo like loads of it.

‎"When I first met you, I'm so pissed off with you.."
"When I met you at the second time, I'm so blur with you..."

But when you left, I'm missing your jokes.

So,

"When I met you at the third time, I'm so tired driving you around.."
"When I met you at the fourth time, I'm so speechless with you.."

But I knew,even how many times I meet you it will never enough - because it doesn't count like that.

It's not about how cool is the ride at Singapore or how colorful is the Jellyfish in Manila or how fun is Hong Kong or how fantastic is the shooting class.

It is only about being with the person itself. Being with the person is far more than enough. Because Heart is the matter. Hugs.

So how did I celebrate my Valentine?
I did it with Wanie. Although she is not really into it but we decide to hang out go out for late lunch,dinner and coffee. And as usual, we went to the Starbuck nearby. And we took photos like loads of photos.

The people there quite know us already and they don't mind when we did the video talking nonsense and they don't mind with us ( me especially ) laughing so loud.

It was a great Valentine. Even if there is no flowers or chocolate, I felt spending the whole time with someone who really appreciate you is much better than nothing at all.

And, Valentine doesn't mean it have to be with your honey bunny - Valentine can be with good friends, siblings, parents and those lonely people.

So yes, Happy Valentine once again.

"as the time goes by I got to learn that loving a person is not about the SMSing,TEXTing and CALLing every minutes every hours. it is HEART the matter. it is about how far the person willing to go and walk with you during good and bad times. it is about compromising. true to yourself and believing each other - i am adapting and I'm glad am learning".- alexa


Don't give up just yet as the new beginning just about to start.

The notes to my Monster

Valentine doesn't have to be with honey bunny, it can be with good friend too. So this year my V- Day I do it with Wani

Something I crave a lot?

I have nothing. All I need now is just a hug.

Gimme some hug now.

My Kitty said, "I dun giv a damn!"

Hi ex,

I've scratched your car once because I was so lost in the parking place.
I even throw your phone away. And I pretend that I have no clue about it.

I even deleted all your documents on your lappy while you are sleeping.
I even throw away your favorite jeans away.

But most of all, I steal your ID and get them to burn.

:)

Dear Monster,

Good morning.
I know you gonna be busy with the shooting,meeting..blah blah blah and all that but I am writing this to tell you that I need to see you.
Don't worry, aunty had cooked really well this week. She even gave me angpow.
I never tell you this, but she's really stingy but I've told her when it comes to food, one must not apply the stingy principle. So obviously she listens.

Dear Monster, it's Valentine today. Damn, I know you've wished me a Valentine wish in advance. But I thought you are going to dance and sing for me. Did you not promise me last month??. Anyway I would like to inform you that I am very flexible, I'll let you do something different for me this year. Don't laugh. And don't even think to give me that sarcastic answer.

Dear Monster, I have to put this in writing since you are very forgetful and stop I know you are going to tell me that Macro and Micro stuffs but still I need to put all this in writing just in case I wake up quite late today and you can read this at your 10am morning breakfast. So here I wanted to tell you that I need your hug like 100x to make up for the Manila trip.

Dear Monster, I just found out that you are right about the Dugong. It's Sea-Cow but please they don't live in the river. So I was right enough about the mammal. I even asked this to Wanie just to make sure I have the fact right.

Dear Monster, I hate it when you are busy but I am impressed when you nominated me at the second place before your business thing. So one point for you for that.

Dear Monster, I hate to say this but please don't cancel any of my trip anymore because that makes you look 10 times ugly than the lion king you see. And I swear, if you ever cancel my trip again the next time I come to pick you up I'll leave you in Puchong.

After- all, I love the person you are. Even if you talk so much and your saliva is everywhere when you get excited you still that beautiful monster you see. And even after  I got to know that you need to buy the Chili Sauce and the Nescafe which I think kinda funny I still love you as a person. Just don't say a word about how bad my parking is.

Oh before I go, please let me come to Singapore this week . I promise I'll be a good girl. I can be a good chef you know. You know I can cook white rice, like seriously.

Happy Valentine.

Yours Sincerely,
Baby

"Love doesn't mean anything if you're not willing to make a commitment and you have to think not only about what you want but about what he wants". - Nicholas Sparks


Happy Valentine everyone!!